I Feel Completely Numb

[Deleted member 38644]

Would you read my trauma diary? I just posted there for the first time last night. I stay with my dad temporarily and it's hard but I'm glad it's about to be over with. I haven't been really triggered because I'm not in the public anymore. When someone gets a smart mouth through the phone it takes 5 minutes to start my rant, I go numb because I haven't been around triggers.

 

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I read it and posted a response, Lauren. Hang in there.

 

[Deleted member 38644]

My journal

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[Jadie Rose]

I will read it, thank you for the link as I don't know how to navigate around here yet. Do hang in there, I feel "everything" you wrote about - I just don't want to feel anymore so I have not let myself for few months now. And I stay in the house, never call my friends back and have pushed everyone away because I get so angry ALL the time. I know when the days are bad, they are REALLY bad (and that seems like everyday and, at least for me, I just think what is the point anymore since been dealing with this for 14/15 yrs, but that's what is so great about having this forum to come to...at least others do understand and it may take me many days of pure utter hell to remember that (I was offline for two weeks because I just had to completely be by myself...I don't know if that helps in any way but best i know how to do right now - big huge hugs Lauren!

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Yeah I left everyone alone because I stay going off...I been back since December and I isolated myself from everything and everyone. I stay with the door close. I go to stores nearby

 

[Deleted member 38644]

Thank you!!!

I read it and posted a response, Lauren. Hang in there.