Sufferer I Have Ptsd...and I'm Not Sure What Slse To Say

[Sideways]

I was sexually abused as a kid. Ritualistic thing. Set me up for getting raped as an adult (as it does). But when I think about what else to say about my life, especially to a bunch of people who have already been there themselves, my life feels like a black hole.

Saying I've had a few good cracks at suicide feels like I'm just trying to justify being here. The truth is, the suicide attempts might be significant diagnostically, but it's the every day part of life, having to live surrounded by myself, that's the worst part...

But it really does sound like a lot of you are already across that as well.

Anyway, I'm here, trying it out. That's gotta be a good thing.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums, I was also sexually abused at that age, though different reason.

I know how you feel, and believe, this place helps a lot.

I hope you stay and get better

Sending warm hugs :hug:

 

[BlueOrange]

Well said. It can be a bit weird, not needing to explain from the beginning! I like the way you were up-front about the uncertainty. Uncertainty can be hard to handle.

 

[ghotiff]

Welcome. I too suffered childhood sexual abuse. This place is great for support and help with healing.

 

[Gadgie]

Welcome to the site RC, I hope you find it supportive and helpful as I did, good luck.

 

[You all]

Thank you for your commments. It's an incredibly lonely disease - you start by just not trusting anyone, then it just becomes safer to isolate yourself completely. So it's good to know other people are out there. It's a relief to have someone say "I know how you feel" and know that they actually really do know how you feel.

I'm not sure if you guys are part of the Welcoming Committee (!) but thanks for taking a moment to reply. That's been a better start to the day:)

 

[RavenGirl]

@Ragdoll Circus , I too had the unfortunate luck of being sexually abused as a child. I remember thinking I was never going to tell another living soul what happened to me; that my secret would go to the grave with me. .. well here I am and my secret is out and I AM ALIVE! ! :happy: We deserve to heal, and this forum has helped me a lot. I hope you find it as helpful as I have. :tup:Knowing there are people who understand really helps in the healing process. Welcome. :hug::)

 

[RavenGirl]

Obviously I didn't mean to post that twice, STUPID PHONE! LOL

 

[intothelight]

@Ragdoll Circus Welcome! :)

It is easier to fight this disorder with the support of others that really understand. I hope you find this site helpful.

 

[Anarchy]

Hi Ragdoll Circus,

I'm glad that you found the forum,

Sorry that you had reason to (too).

Hope that you find it helpful to know that you are not alone, and that there are people here 24/7 who understand.

@

Ps
Love your choice of name.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

the suicide attempts might be significant diagnostically, but it's the every day part of life, having to live surrounded by myself, that's the worst part...

Im finding you and i are more alike than i orginally knew. Sucidie is also an every day thought, since I was 8, so i understand the feeling.

Im sorry you had to go through the ritualistic thing too! :hug:

 

[Sideways]

Im finding you and i are more alike than i orginally knew. Sucidie is also an every day thoug...

Having read your story, it's actually really confronting to have you say that you get where my head's at. I've come a long way in therapy, but there are still a lot of times where I retreat to the safety of Denial - I don't want to be able to relate to you, I don't want to have to deal with the thought that my life has even the tiniest similarity to your story. It's too awful. I can't cope with that.

And then I stop, and take a breath, and realise that I'm crying. Someone gets it. They genuinely understand, and have the courage and compassion to tell me so. It's messages like that one that you just wrote to me that will get me out of hospital, and help me to survive.