I Just Need To Vent!!!

[Philippa]

I guess I'm lucky that my father has apologized for being a general prick, but only once he realized that I might have ended up being one those kids who killed themselves because the parents had their heads so far up their own arses that they didn't notice their child was in pain, and he hasn't apologized for anything specific, just for not noticing that it was as serious as it was.

He's so terrified of losing his 'investment'...he actually said to me the day I wanted to throw myself in front of a bus, "you can't do that...it would all have been for nothing" as he was crying over my me. In other words all his hard work and investment and time spent away from us would have been fro nothing...nothing to do with the fact that I was actually in pain to the point of wanting to die...just that his hard work would have been for nothing.

Kids are NOT just an "investment"...they are precious little individuals with souls and personalities of their very own.

 

[Heather]

I'm glad you got an apology Philippa. You DESERVE IT! I don't think my mother knows the definition of the word. Her head is so far up her butt it's busted out her colon and lodged some place in her stomach:p

 

[Philippa]

I'm glad you got an apology Philippa. You DESERVE IT! I don't think my mother knows the definition of the word. Her head is so far up her butt it's busted out her colon and lodged some place in her stomach:p

Well, the cynical side of me keeps telling me that he only did it because he knows he's getting older and gonna die soon, and he wants me to look after him. He did seem really sincere, and guilt ridden though, which shows he's at least human.

Your mum sounds heinous. Sorry you had to put up with her all your life. It's crazy that these people bring us into the world. Can you believe you came from inside her beastly self?

 

[Philippa]

Anyway, thanks for starting this thread...I really needed to vent tonight.

 

[Heather]

. Can you believe you came from inside her beastly self?

:roflmao: You make me laugh! :roflmao: 'cause if I think about it any other way...I'd probably puke :roflmao: or :poop: my pants:eek:

 

[Philippa]

:roflmao: You make me laugh! :roflmao: 'cause if I think about it any other way...I'd probably puke :roflmao: or :poop: my pants:eek:

Finding the humor is always good. Glad you got a laugh out of it. I like to make people I don't like, or who are horrible to me into caricatures in my mind. That is, I like to exaggerate their features and make them almost cartoonish to cope with them. It really works in making them seem smaller in your mind and lessening the fear of them.

Laughter is the best medicine and can work wonders if someone is getting in your face...just laugh right in their face...and watch them shrink.

 

[momwithptsd]

Philippa and Heather you two make me laugh!! I'm glad to know I'm not the only person whose got messed up relationship with their parent(s)!! I'm also glad that I'm not the only one whose parent makes them feel like their issues are making them "crazy" and being "overly sensitive". I get told those things all of the time!!

My husband's family are so very close (immediate and extended family), that is what I think of family being like when I think of the word family. I'm hoping my little family (husband and kids) turn out like his family, because besides my older sister, my grandparents, and my one aunt, I'm not going to get that or anything close to that with my family!!

 

[Philippa]

Yes, I would like that too. I don't have that closeness with any member of my immediate family, and I haven't felt like they are even my family for over 10 years now...they just pretend it's a family. I've felt more like an orphan, even though my family members are all still alive. it's the weirdest thing.

 

[Deleted member 8714]

Hi Heather,
I divorced myself from my mother at age 33 and never looked back. She was a Narcissist and also had Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder. So she was a perfect narcissist. Thankfully she's dead and died the way Narcissists hate to die, out of her control.

I was homeless at one point in my life and all she did was brag about the plans for her new home.

She was so self-absorbed that it wasn't until I was eleven years old that found out I had a birthmark. I was the one who found it too.

Philippa,
I haven't had a relationship with my immediate family since age 33, 25 years ago. During that time I've visited them once 13 years ago. When my mother died last year I thought our family might get closer. No such luck. It's like I don't exist. And personally, I don't really care because they're all very dysfunctional. My step-dad has OCPD like my mother had. My oldest brother is a Narcissist like my mother. My youngest brother has OCPD as well. My middle brother is most likely suffering from PTSD and vicarious abuse as he witnessed my abuse. His first wife used to ask me what happened to my brother as he was so messed up. Of course I couldn't answer that question because I was equally messed up and dissociative.

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I found an interesting website for those dealing with Narcissist relationships. I don't think you can join the membership any more but the information is an interesting read. http://www.voicelessness.com The name, voicelessness speaks loads to me, never having had a voice.

 

[anthony]

I think my son fits into narcissist at times... he just does not care about a single person other than himself, and if it doesn't benefit him, then he turns abusive near immediately upon not getting his way.

Interesting read...

 

[momwithptsd]

My ex husband and ex mother-in-law I swear are both narcissists and bi-polar, which is fine by me at this point since they have chosen to be non-existent in my life and my son's life, which makes it even easier for my current husband to bond with him (they have an amazingly close relationship)!! I really greatly dislike narcissistic people.

 

[Heather]

I really greatly dislike narcissistic people.

Amen to that!:) This is another one that would make a great bumper sticker:D​