I May Be Too Old For This!

[Mojangles]

But I am going to try-thanks in advance for your patience!

Hi everybody-I am not sure how to start as this is all new for me, but after having a rather unpleasant childhood involving my father and 6 of his "closest friends" I left home at 14 and completely squashed all of my traumas into what I called The black hole(lol)
Then last year I got breast cancer and suddenly my world turned upside down and I began having flashbacks,nightmares and am unable to even leave my house most of the time. My therapist has diagnosed me with ptsd and my therapy has just started. This is a very abreviated version, and it would be helpful to get an opinion from others on whether it is even worth trying to do this at age 46-I mean how stupid to be this freaked over something that was over so long ago. Thanks for your input-M

 

[Luthien]

Welcome Mojangles.

We're happy to have you here.
There are many people of all different ages, on here. You are not the oldest by far, and you should never use your age as a reason to give up. All you can ever do is give it your best, and you owe it to yourself to try.

I know what it is like to have your whole world turned upside down. My story is all over this site, if you'd ever care to read it.
I too was diagnosed with cancer last year. Mine was cervical. I am now cancer free, but it is still affecting me in many ways. My diagnosis opened up a whole new level of PTSD for me. So I can relate to that as well.

I am sure if you keep at it, you will find this forum to be a wonderful, supportive place to be. I cannot express how much it has already done for me.

Keep posting, and get out of moderation, that is when the fun, and real breakthrough begins. When you do get full status, feel free to private message me anytime. Until then, if you'd like to talk, we can do it here.

Keep Your Chin Up

 

[Grama-Herc]

Too Old? Not hardly. Just so you know, I gave myself a breakdown as my 50th birthday present. I thought I was "normal" until my diagnosis! LOL.

I am now 61 and am still working on some intense issues and this site has been a rock for my sanity and understanding .

Welcome to our group, we really do "get it" and are all willing to help and listen

 

[Deleted member 541]

Welcome to the forum....

I am 55 and still working on my issues also. My PTSD was caused from molestation, at a very early age, and gang rape at 15 or 16. Can't remember and I was too drunk to care, back the either.....

So you are not to old to have any of this creep up on you. PTSD rears it's ugly head when it feels the opportunity to do so...Usually when we are stressed to the max.....

Hope that you are clear now of breast cancer.......

 

[Kunoichi]

Welcome to the group!

while i'm not over 50 (i'm only 21 myself) it is ALWAYS worth working through this to improve your life. It is never too late to heal, or too early. see you in the forum!

Kunoichi

 

[fin]

Welcome M

I am going to be 45 next week...you are not too old, PTSD has no understanding of age.
You aren't stupid to be freaked out about something that happened "long ago". That is PTSD...

Welcome
there is so much information that may help and a lot of people who will understand and be here...
hey

 

[patrick]

Hi M,

Looks like I'm second place in the age contest. Grama Herc has me beat by four years. How is the breast cancer situation. One of my ex wives had breast cancer, and she felt like she was going to die young until she had tested clear for about five years.

If I'm not mistaken, my PTSD started when I was 18, and I didn't know I had it until about three months ago. I spent most of my life thinking there wasn't much point in doing anything because I didn't have that much time left. It's called a sense of a forshortened future - it's a common PTSD symptom, and there is some good information about it on this forum. I feel a lot like you do almost every day. How the hell could I be so messed up over something that happened so long ago, and what kind of a wimp am I anyway. And what's the point of going through all this nightmare with therapy. By the time I get better from the PTSD I'll be too damned old to do anything fun anyway. Right now, I'm operating mostly on faith. A bunch of people I like and respect, most of them right here on the forum, have told me that it can get way better. Now and then I get a first hand glimpse. Keeps me going.

I wish you the best and do hope to see you back here. It's nice having a good age distribution on this thing.

Pat

 

[jeapea]

I'm 51. I ran out of alternative ways to deal with this earlier in my life so I'm happy Anthony created this site for us! Glad you're here with us!

 

[Leda]

Welcome to the forum.

And - you are not to old;-) I´m 48 and feel quite at home here.

 

[TLight]

Hi MoJangles;
I'm 43 and just now out of denial that there is something terribly wrong with me and there has been my whole life. Denial of these painful traumas can be long and hard to come out of........but I'm out and the floodgates are now open......perhaps healing can now occur.

Congrats on being here..........and you are never too old for consciousness.

 

[raku]

Welcome, mojangles! It's too bad that your crises have happened at the same time - that truly stinks.

Speaking as another of the "old folks", I also hope it's not too late to start doing at least something to improve my life. I keep telling myself that the trick to doing this so late in life is to learn to live more during the process and enjoy small accomplishments, rather than thinking that life will only be worthwhile after I cross the finish line.

Hope nobody's insulted by the "old folks" :-(