Sufferer I Need Help

[brokenhearted]

Just started EMDR. I am going about 2-3 times a week.

I have many traumas. The worst of which is a kidnap and rape when I was 8.

I can't stop crying and I feel like my head is full of bees.

What do I do?

 

[Loveneverfails]

I wish I had more clear answers, hopefully someone else will. I'm so sorry for what you've been through. What happened to you was so horrible. I am glad you survived it but I'm sorry you're suffering. Remember to take things slowly and just keep doing what you're doing with therapy. There isn't a cure all or a time frame for healing, you can only just try. You're in the right place though for support, welcome to the forum. :)

 

[BigBear]

Hi BrokenHearted,

I'd think that talking about it would be good. It is for my wife. First, however, you have to find someone(s) on here that you feel really comfy talking to. Please take your time! It is a very important step.

In the meantime, we'll take care of you and cover your back!

Bear

 

[brokenhearted]

Thank you.

I have some really good friends that I can talk to, but sometimes you just need others who have gone through it. My husband is supportive, but he doesn't really grasp it all. He thinks gifts and hugs should cure me.

My parents were very abusive in every way.

When I escaped from the kidnapper and got home they were so mad. They made me lie to the police about the rape and wouldn't let them take me for an examination. They said it was my own fault for tlaking to strangers and they hoped I learned my lesson.

 

[brokenhearted]

Sorry about the typos, I am in full blown panic mode at the moment.

 

[Heather]

I'm sorry you were treated like that by your parents. I know what it's like to not be supported by your family and it's excruciatingly painful.

I was sexually assaulted by my brother-in-law and when I told my mother I couldn't be around him she said, "why do you allow it to affect you so?!" What a slap in the face when I needed her support the most.

I hope you find peace and healing here. I have.

 

[brokenhearted]

Heather,

I am sorry. I like to think they didn't know any better, but in the case of my parents I know that's not true.

Did you do EMDR?

 

[Heather]

I tried it awhile ago but found it too much to take at the time. I wish you luck with your experience of emdr.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi Brokenhearted, welcome to the forum:) I am starting emdr, I had my first session yesterday and I had a very good experience. Nothing else has surfaced and I did'nt have nightmares last night.

I hope you may want to consider going slower on your emdr. It sounds like you are being overwhelmned. I am sorry for what you suffered and endured as a small child and the cruel way your parents treated you. It is sickening what your parents did to you. I hope you will think about slowing down on the emdr because it sounds like it is too much for you. I hope things work out for you in processing your memories of this terror and horror filled event in your life. There are alot of good people who understand. You are not alone.