I realize I don't have to allow past abuse from when I was a child and teenager effect me anymore. I have a choice now. I also realise those people who abused me are/were damaged people and I was forced to be under their supervision etc. and none of that was my fault. I also realise, most importantly, that their opinions don't matter (and never did). I realize it's okay to grieve lost time and lost opportunities due to all of the abuse and all of the times other people beat me down.