I Realize That I

[Heather]

I realize that for as far as I've come....I'm scared every day and it is hard pushing through that wall.

Will it ever get any easier?

 

[ladee]

I realize that the grieving process for never having a family is taking much longer than I anticipated and I want it to be done.

 

[Heather]

I realize I keep putting myself in a situation that gives my intolerable anxiety.

LIGHT BULB: stay away from the situation.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I am afraid of changes but I suffocate when feeling stuck.

 

[The Albatross]

I realize that I still react pretty strongly by other peoples impulsiveness or being around people who have no filter. It really still bothers me.

 

[The Albatross]

I realize that I am guarded and protected about influences by members who have no demonstrated recovery/diagnosis/experience.

 

[The Albatross]

I realize that ambiguity yellow or red flags me/pisses me off.

 

[ninja]

I realize that I am physically tired more than I've thought. Sometimes I need to just stop, lay down and breathe.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am realizing that the older I get the less I know, and am okay with that. I am going to be learning the rest of my life and I realize that I have a long way to go in my personal growth process. I realize that I can only really grow on the inside when I am in a painful process and that I do not like it but I do love where the good comes out of the bad, most of the time.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I'm not always emotionally honest with my therapist in therapy. Not that I lie to her. I don't. I tell the truth about my experiences and what I'm feeling. I do however realize that when I practice avoidance in a session it's kind of the equivalent of withholding. If I'm avoiding something then I'm withholding my emotions from not just myself but, from her.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I can go on without music but it's harder.

 

[ladee]

I realize that a container of non dairy creamer falling off the counter, the lid coming off, and the humidity in the air can cause it to be like glue on the carpet... especially if it fell off during the night and I didn't know.... and that in PTSD land, that is permission to have a complete and utter meltdown first thing in the morning. Which then forces choices... back to bed, or clean up the mess. deep sigh.