I Realize That I

[Rani G2]

Live in Isolation due to fear. It’s a near—distance regulation thing. I Don’t like to work under other people, I don’t like to compromise. I want autonomy.. but going against nature doesn’t seem to work either.

 

[blackemerald1]

Live in Isolation due to fear.

but going against nature doesn’t seem to work either

^^the same for me :(

 

[MrMoonlight]

I retreat into music when trying to escape.

 

[Lionheart]

I am too trusting.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I am an inconvenient truth.

 

[Lionheart]

I realize that I speak too much (of my own) truth for some people.

 

[Abstract]

that may still be being a putz.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I have a lot of work to do in recovery and that I'm very, very tired.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I never could have prepared myself for the state of things as they currently are, most especially regarding the rapidly declining health of my mom. May she soon find peace of mind and resting comfort in whatever form it needs to arrive in.

 

[Rani G2]

Have a hard time tracking my emotions.

 

[Teasel]

Am somewhat addicted to this place and my phone generally.

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I realize that I can't save or rescue others...even though every ounce of my being frequently tries to convince me otherwise...especially when it comes to family.

Staying in that thought pattern of "But if only I could/would/etc.", only causes more stress, more symptoms, and more chances for me to totally f*ck up my own healing grooves.

I can't save them, make their decisions for them, or even share the same space due to my own health issues...all I can do is love them...even if it must be from afar.

Accepting that has been much more difficult than I ever imagined, as I always thought things would be totally different.

Reality.....SLAP!