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[Deleted member 12723]

@Snowwhite I am also struggling with the same exact thing and I think this is a process that will take a while to sort through. I think you are good at heart so try not to beat yourself up as I have been doing to me as it only makes me feel worse. Hang in there.

I realize that all of life is full of changes and I so want to live fully in spite or the changes good or bad.

 

[Anrish]

@Snowwhite and @gizmo : I join in this struggeling. It's so hard to tell it apart and to handle yourself....let's do our best together. And @Snowwhite I just loved your quote from the Red Hot Chili Pepper's song - it touched me very much. :hug:

I realize that I'm still hurting inside.

I realize that my mental pressure still hurts my body.

I realize that I feel uneasy when I don't have any work to distract me.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

@Anrish, I am so sorry that you struggle with this as well. It does hurt and gets confusing trying to seperate the two.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize after getting quite angry again that this anger centers around my concept of trust.

I realize that this goes back to my family, etc. but it is like I never was allowed to express my anger over anything. It seems that these major situations in my life in the present, are allowing me to release my anger. I realize I don't have to be scared of it and I will live through it.

The realization that it centers around trust vs. mistrust is very freeing and healing for me in so many ways.

 

[Tinyflame]

I realize that I don't have a lot of anger because I don't have a lot of negative thoughts of others, probably not because of any goodness on my part, but just no room in my brain.

I realize I can't stand any more rages or alcoholic words, despite some good actions that sometimes follow. Nor do I want good words that precede no words or no actions.

I realize it is unbearable to exist like this, I know the difference between having a life & this is no worth.

I realize I likely have an ulcer again.

I realize I'm worried about & for, my sister.

I realize writing the stuff above really doesn't matter or make any difference.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I'm easy to influence.

 

[Recovery4Me]

@Anrish (((hugs))) I hear you but my jury is different.

I see you as an artistic soul. For instances - I cry sometimes with awesome chick flicks or animal stories of getting back home. Music influences me and can help me get into the feeling or cry out for me. Art, paintings, photographs can evoke me to feel in awe, inspired or horrified. Thin or scratchy toilet paper that really influences me! :clown: What if it is just the by-product of taking in life?

I dunno but I am listening to you. (((hugs)))

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I realize that I am really really really stupid sometimes :banghead:

 

[Deleted member 19804]

Hugs @Cj77 :hug: I'm sorry you feel that way. I hope the feeling goes away soon, so you can see the kind, smart, and beautiful person you are.


I realize that I am not completely cured from my eating disorder and that I will one day have to face that.

I realize that having most of my symptoms under control , most of the time, because I take antidepressants every day, does not equal being cured of PTSD. If it weren't for the meds, I'd probably not be able to function.
Therefore, I must take myself seriously.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Thanks @Snowwhite, you really helped me :hug:

 

[Let It Be]

I realize after just talking to my narcissistic brother how much better I am doing.

I was able to keep myself detached from him as he was talking about his health.

I realize that I will need to keep this up if he begins to call me more often.

 

[Anrish]

@Snowwhite: I hope your eating disorder will become better. ...as long as the meds help you to deal with daily life, it's okay. ...I'm positive that you will go your way. :hug:

I realize that I should listen to my "stomach" more.