To Annafennutchi,
You are very courageous for bringing that specific and deeply personal issue with yourself to the forum and you have our deepest support and empathy. We are very sorry to hear that happened and are shocked that things like this occur. We believe this happened and that your experiences are so extreme that we accept you are telling the truth. You are not at fault here at all.
I think it is really despicable that someone took major control over you and had nearly a total hold on you for years. He made you feel loss every which way he could and what he did to you was terrible. The good news is you now have the control and the power for your own self. You need to work on breaking free from his hold on you.
I am beyond words to describe my extreme dismay and disappointment at hearing your own brother had non consensual sex with you (rape) and heaped abuse upon you (when you did not want it and knew it was wrong) when you were not even of age to consent and/or earlier had no knowledge of what he was doing before it went way too far. The various states have laws favoring you on incest and rape cases.
I would seek help anonymously from a rape crisis center and get a rape counselor to get you started on the process of resolving this matter immediately. You need help beyond the scope of what the forum here can advise you. The rape crisis center should allow you to come to them anonymously and file an anonymous report on the abuser (with evidence and have you do the rape kit and all). At least, it will get the law to put their eye on him (without him getting wind of who reported him).
I do not know your age, but I would recommend if you are an adult (or close to it), you move out of there as fast as possible. You are not safe where you are at. You need to be put in a safe environment (where you can shower by yourself alone) and where you can sleep at night alone. From here on, the act of sex ought to be a mutually consensual decision between you and your husband or really close boyfriend if you choose. The key is here, you need to be in a safe environment, away from those pressures, and other outside influences. You need to experience the relative control for yourself over your own life and know that what you do, the contributions you make, and your decisions matter.
You will further need a lot of counseling and therapy while in a safe environment to ensure you get on the right path to learn and know who you are. In that, you can set the boundaries.
In either case, you need to learn what is safe to keep you from harm as you already know what harms you and is not safe. You need to experience good things in a good environment as you emerge into adulthood with being given the opportunity to follow your own dreams and goals (which have little or nothing to do with the act of sex). You have already done the most difficult part by surviving this. Now, you need to get the help to begin the process to heal as soon as possible.
I am suggesting these things to avoid the prosecutor and the courts forcing you to relive the experiences. The key is you need to heal. The rape crisis people should approach the perpetrator and not leave you to do it.
I wish you much wellness and health in your journey to heal.
With sincerely good thoughts,
The Snowy Owl