I Went To My Appointment On Friday

[tah]

So I went to my appointment on Friday. I was all worked up and as I was in the waiting room my mind was racing and I could feel a pounding in my ears. When they called my name it was like a distant echo.

I didn't know how to start my appointment. I just went over some basics. I explained how my anxieties have been getting more intense and I am having a difficult time controlling them. I also explained I am having memories from my childhood flashing to me over the last year and more frequently in the recent 3 months or so.

He is actually referring me to someone else. I figured that would happen. I have Kaiser and if anyone is familiar with Kaiser, that is what they do. But he did say he wanted to get me on some meds for my anxieties in the meantime. I am really edgy about it. I have to go to work and I can't take the time to get used to something. Also, another reason I have a tough time with meds is I had a tough battle with drugs as a teen and early 20's. The only thing that got me straight was getting pregnant with my oldest.

It has been a long road since and I don't want to go back to addiction. So he did refer a couple that are not as addictive, but of course are not as strong either. Also he said they could cause me more restlessness and I am already having trouble sleeping. I guess there are a couple that could be combined with a sleep aid. It is so hard. I really was trying to get through this without medication. I know there is nothing wrong with being on meds, but for me I really wanted to do this. So I am reading up on the info he gave me and see if I am ok with some.

I also am looking into St Johns Wort or Magnolia Bark. I have heard these help with anxiety and Magnolia Bark also helps with sleep. Of course my Dr. really didn't say much about them. Has anyone here tried any of these?

Thx again for listening.:hello:

 

[SunnyBrookFarm]

Tah -

First, congrads on making your appt. and showing up. I know how hard it is to finally admit to someone that you need help - I can still remember how absolutely terrified I was.

I've had Kaiser in the past and can say that they normally have pretty good resource group for out-sourcing so hopefully you will get someone good.

I would be careful with herbal supplements if you are starting new meds - at a minimum you need to call the doc's office to make sure they don't interact. I know that St. John's Wort does not react well to some meds but I can't remember what category meds it is.

 

[Ursa]

Congratulations for making the appointment.

I know it is hard to make some kinds of decisions. I was afraid to start on meds too but some months ago I just gave up. I was way too tired to fight it alone...

Sometimes when I want to make a decision I just write on a paper the odds and evens of the situation. Just like math, I put the goods in one side and the bads on another side and I count how many of each I have. I know sometimes one even is worth a lot of odds but it helps me to organize my mind and to make a more clear decision.

Take care.