Title. I most recently attempted suicide after the session two weeks ago, and I'm tempted again today. It makes me feel hopeless. Like it will never help me. All we've talked about for six weeks is school. I haven't been eating correctly, I attempted suicide, I'm having nightmares, I'm self harming, and my therapist has no idea. All because we are talking about school and not things that matter to me.
And yes, I have tried changing the subject. She's responded (mildly aggressive but I might be overreacting) by saying that we need to talk about these things (school. it's just school) and got upset when I said I have a school counselor to talk about school with. It's Christmas Break and we're talking about school. I don't even have school. I don't do bad in school. I get A's and B's. I don't know why we talk about school when I've been trying so hard to push to finally start EMDR.
I want to quit so bad. I felt better when I wasn't in therapy. But I don't know if I should just stick it out. I know too many people that would be dissapointed if I stopped going, and I don't want to unload another five month's worth of information onto another therapist right now. So I really would be quitting. What do I do?
And yes, I have tried changing the subject. She's responded (mildly aggressive but I might be overreacting) by saying that we need to talk about these things (school. it's just school) and got upset when I said I have a school counselor to talk about school with. It's Christmas Break and we're talking about school. I don't even have school. I don't do bad in school. I get A's and B's. I don't know why we talk about school when I've been trying so hard to push to finally start EMDR.
I want to quit so bad. I felt better when I wasn't in therapy. But I don't know if I should just stick it out. I know too many people that would be dissapointed if I stopped going, and I don't want to unload another five month's worth of information onto another therapist right now. So I really would be quitting. What do I do?