I'm A Waste Of Resources

[It's Me]

I'm sorry this may end in a bit of a rant- so I apologise now.
I've just come back from a nice weeks holiday - very relaxed and stuff seemed a bit clearer, however we came home today and boom that's all down the drain.
A letter, addressed to me contained what I had been hoping for for several months now. Or so I thought. 'We are referring you for bereavement counselling, this is the end of the referral, thank you'. Bereavement counselling, cheers for that. Yes okay it's progress however I did think to try and help myself and I am getting bereavement counselling, with the exact same people as they've referred me to. I have PTSD...I have asked and no these people can't help me with that - brilliant. I have PTSD, I spend every night reliving the trauma - I finally sleep for about 3 hours a night then get up and try to act like normal. I'm petrified of finding a trigger in the day time incase I show myself up in front of everyone. I can't keep going like this - it's draining and no one gets that. How does a 16 year old who has never had issues before suddenly need help?! That's what you see them thinking - I'm a waste of resources. Cheers for that.

 

[Suzetig]

Sorry, it sounds like the referral isn't helpful in the slightest. Who diagnosed your PTSD? What treatment plan did they put in place for you - I wold have thought a referral to CAMHS would have followed diagnosis? Do the folk doing your bereavement counselling know about the PTSD diagnosis? Sorry for so many questions but I'm struggling to see how they could diagnose PTSD in a teenager and not have a treatment plan for you. Not doubting you at all, more doubting the system which doesn't seem to be working as it should.

You're not a waste of resources at all, it's just sometimes we need to fight for services that should be automatic.

 

[It's Me]

I had a CAF done on me several months ago, which my gp referred me to on the grounds of PTSD symptoms which were confirmed during the assessment. I don't know, every time I seem to get somewhere everyone seems to put it down to grief but I can't grieve like this with everything constantly being re uprooted everyday. They do know about it but they can't do anything because they don't have experience in that, only bereavement.
Thanks for replying

 

[Deleted member 12723]

You are not as bad as you think and you are better than you think.

 

[Suzetig]

When your CAF was completed they should have put a support plan in place for you. Can you go back to your GP and ask for a referral to CAMHS (child and adolescent mental health services) - they can support a range of issues. Are you seeing a specific grief counsellor (eg Cruise) or a wider service. While you'll need a trauma specialist or PTSD a less specialist counsellor can do a good lot of work to help you with symptom management.

 

[It's Me]

I have a slight issue with doctors/hospitals etc, they trigger me. That's why I was so happy and relieved that I managed to get as far as I did. I am seeing someone from Cruse, the arrangement as far as they explained it to me was they'd do the PTSD bits