I think the issue is I don't really understand the suicide plan line. I know exactly how I'd do it and have access to that and it'd work. But I don't plan on doing it.
Like it's worked okay so far. Because I do manage to get it across pretty okay. But I'm worried one day someone won't believe me and things will f*ck up.
Once you cross that line, you won't be unsure that you've crossed it, you'll know, because it's a plan.
I have impulsive and intrusive suicidal thoughts like in harm OCD. That's before the plan line, even though in my head I can see the whole thing and rationally understand how to access it all in real life, and have thought about it.
Later I started feeling like killing myself is just something I will inevitably do, but I'm waiting until after certain family members die to do it. That's a plan. If those family members were currently somehow close to death, I would need to be hospitalized immediately after, and my t would be making plans with me.
My t never brings up the hospital though because those fams aren't likely to die soon. She only asks if I feel like I might carry anything out, and also asks if I feel capable of telling the truth about that.
So, just be honest and clear, and no hospital. Provided GP as some kind of awareness, which, idk, maybe he doesn't.
Good luck!
