Friday
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This is a really hard one for me, because whilst I’m a bit younger than you?
I’m too old to work in my favorite careers, & too old / broke / broken / in too much pain …to do any of the things that I love, and most of the things I like.
So there’s a lot of fact, in there. Like the cut off age being 32. Or needing to be physically fit. Or have money.
I’ve lost everything too many times, and each time I do I start off worse.
Pretty much the only thing that helps is knowing it could be worse. That gets me out of the myopic of what I can’t do, and puts my brain to work thinking about what I could do if things were totally f*cked in a different way. Like instead of losing years to being sick/injured, or to being stalked, they were years lost to being in prison. So in addition to lost years of my life in the past, I’d now have to be working around a felony record. Or paralyzed with a broken neck, instead of just 2 dislocated vertebrae in my neck. Or whatever. Take whatever it is that I’ve lost or that I’m dealing with… and make it worse. Because things can alwaaaaays be worse. Still lost years, loves, opportunities, ambitions, etc., but with different & greater difficulties attached.
Because when I’m stuck in where I’m ACTUALLY at? There’s too much pain. But if I can think of things I could still do if things were worse? I know there are -probably- still things I can do now.
I’m too old to work in my favorite careers, & too old / broke / broken / in too much pain …to do any of the things that I love, and most of the things I like.
So there’s a lot of fact, in there. Like the cut off age being 32. Or needing to be physically fit. Or have money.
I’ve lost everything too many times, and each time I do I start off worse.
Pretty much the only thing that helps is knowing it could be worse. That gets me out of the myopic of what I can’t do, and puts my brain to work thinking about what I could do if things were totally f*cked in a different way. Like instead of losing years to being sick/injured, or to being stalked, they were years lost to being in prison. So in addition to lost years of my life in the past, I’d now have to be working around a felony record. Or paralyzed with a broken neck, instead of just 2 dislocated vertebrae in my neck. Or whatever. Take whatever it is that I’ve lost or that I’m dealing with… and make it worse. Because things can alwaaaaays be worse. Still lost years, loves, opportunities, ambitions, etc., but with different & greater difficulties attached.
Because when I’m stuck in where I’m ACTUALLY at? There’s too much pain. But if I can think of things I could still do if things were worse? I know there are -probably- still things I can do now.
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