Pink Freud
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Hey everyone,
I started a new job in June. A couple of weeks ago I started tailspinning. The only things I could still manage was me, dog, job. With every week it got worse. To the point where I checked myself into the hospital over weekends and negotiated my way out on Sunday so I could go to work the next day. I'm the only employee and I feel horrible for being on sick leave right now but I stopped functioning. My boss knows I suffer from depression and I also mentioned PTSD once. I told him because I'm so sick and tired of keeping it a secret and trying so hard to be Miss Normal.
He texts me daily. Today I told him that I know how hard it is for people who don't have a mental illness to understand it but that I am really not able to work this week. I'm not fired at least not yet but he wants me to come in for a talk tomorrow.
Feeling anxious about it is an understatement. I'm worried about getting fired. I'm worried about the talk itself because I don't have ANY boundaries at the moment. None. I know I'll start crying.
I started a new job in June. A couple of weeks ago I started tailspinning. The only things I could still manage was me, dog, job. With every week it got worse. To the point where I checked myself into the hospital over weekends and negotiated my way out on Sunday so I could go to work the next day. I'm the only employee and I feel horrible for being on sick leave right now but I stopped functioning. My boss knows I suffer from depression and I also mentioned PTSD once. I told him because I'm so sick and tired of keeping it a secret and trying so hard to be Miss Normal.
He texts me daily. Today I told him that I know how hard it is for people who don't have a mental illness to understand it but that I am really not able to work this week. I'm not fired at least not yet but he wants me to come in for a talk tomorrow.
Feeling anxious about it is an understatement. I'm worried about getting fired. I'm worried about the talk itself because I don't have ANY boundaries at the moment. None. I know I'll start crying.