I am so f*cking pissed!
So my mom sends an email asking me why I haven't replied to my brother's birthday message to me.
I know he's still pissed at me for calling out my mom for continuing to support Trump. So, what do I do? Send him a message that first of all acknowledges that I understand why he didn't send me a birthday message, then apologizing from my gut yet again for leaving him alone with my mother to go away to college. Finally I told him I didn't tell our mom he didn't actually message me.
Then I totally lit into him for continuing to support Trump. In the face of all manner of circumstantial evidence linking him to a conspiracy with Russia. I don't have the energy to go into it all, but there is a ton of drip drip drip. And if my brother, who is bright enough, doesn't care enough to ask me what the evidence is OR HAVE THE f*ckING BRAIN TO READ A NEWSPAPER ARTICLE, f*ck HIM! I am sick of these people, no matter whether they're family or not. My allegiance, my first loyalty is to my country, and if my family are traitors, they are not my family anymore. My family are other Americans who care about what is going on and will fight for our democracy. Hell, my mom's already betrayed me personally, in terms of abuse my whole life. Why should I think she would come around in terms of national abuse like this? and my brother seems to have coped by appeasing her. Guess it's no surprise then that he's okay with appeasing Russia.
I told him I prayed he didn't facilitate his daughter into believing all this bullshit and lamented that my best brother evidently developed into a fascist sympathizer with Russia. AND I don't f*cking regret it. These are not merely the kinds of times that try men's souls, they are the times that try our consciences and where our allegiances really lie. Not enough swear words for you guys? Okay -- f*ck f*ck f*ck f*ck!