Is My Job A Trigger?

[Chrissy kilby]

So I need some opinions. Maybe I just think to much but I'm not sure. 6 years ago when I was raped and Abused it was by my manager at mcdonalds. And ever since then I've worked at fast food mostly. Right now I've been at Wendy's for 3 years, I'm a manager there however I get stressed way to much, sometimes I just want to cry. I feel like I don't do my job right and I will just break down and feel on the edge all the time. Even though I work really hard there and I've put so much into it I'm starting to wonder if it's unhealthy. I don't like mangers telling me what to do at all, I take it personally and I'll beat myself Up over it. When ever I make a mistake it brings me to tears sometimes.. I respect authority don't get me wrong. But I take everything the wrong way at work seems like

 

[ptsdsolution]

Chrissy, my goodness I don't know how you lasted so long there! Day in day out you were in an environment that was in some respects toxic because there are so many reminders-sounds, smells, similar decor etc so your senses were being bombarded on all levels and although you are surviving you were doing so under extreme pressure. No wonder you have issues with the managers after what happened. You worked in a situation that was so similar and you were bound to feel unsafe.

I would love to see you work somewhere where you the real you can shine, feel safe, be yourself and start to relax and enjoy working and enjoy life more as your work life is spilling into your personal life bigtime

 

[arfie]

For sure, stress lowers our resistance to just about everything and food service manager is a seriously high stress job. As for being a trigger, in itself... I, too, think WAY too much. Getting too generalized in what has triggered a specific episode tempts me to muddy the water beyond functionality. I don't always get to know what triggers specific episodes and letting myself over-think it gets me into trouble every time. Some things just can't be forced. I have yet to identify a trigger in a think-a-thon. My awareness of them typically sneaks up on me while I am busy with other things.

And as for not liking to be told what to do... What thinking human does like being criticized and bossed around?

 

[Ladyghosthunter]

Yes however since this is the Internet, I cannot explain why. All I can tell you is that a workplace violence episode that happened 3 days before 9/11 was triggered by an incident here at work. Since then, I've been a complete mess and have been trying to get myself together, much to my downfall.