It's Been a While - Back Now

[Deleted member 93]

Nope, no time constraints. You jump in as soon as you feel capable.

 

[Zamboni]

Wendy and veiled,

Hi. I started therapy today. Stated it was going to take sometime and that it was a good step to come in. I am going to follow through this this time. She said to stay on my medication and here we go.

-Zam

 

[Deleted member 93]

Great news. Every step is a step closer.

 

[Deleted member 541]

Zam,

I'm glad that you decided to take the plunge (again) LOL!!! I like having other friends that can suffer right along with me, and not yell, GET OVER IT B****..

Hang in there, yes it will be tough, but you can do this..

Wendy

 

[Zamboni]

Wendy...

Thanks for nothing ....(JOKE) I am glad I can share this with you. I am very overwelmed and my head is hurting. I am trying to contact friends but they are busy and have families. I am having a bit of a time.

Thank you for writing back. Have a nice night.

-Zam

 

[becvan]

Zam,

Your doing great.. but don't forget that the forum can also trigger us and be too much. Take it slow! I'm very glad to hear about the therapist. Take your time with a trauma diary. Don't rush yourself.

Hope you found some RL support.

bec

 

[Zamboni]

Too much?

Yes I think I am rushing into this. It is opening up a lot and I am having a hard time. I feel paralized.

Zam

 

[Deleted member 541]

Zam,

Pace yourself....If not. Burn out, and then you won't be able to work on your issues. Baby steps......

Possibly you need a break of a few days....

Wen

 

[Zamboni]

Yes Probably

Thanks, I need a few days off. Have a nice weekend.
I have my children and hopefully go to the coast.

-Zam

 

[Zamboni]

Tuesday

I am having a real had time. Along with all of the stuff I applied to find out my maternial birth mother. I seem to to all or nothing.
I had a very hard weekend with my kids and I said that I was sorry for my attitude. I am at a loss currently, so depressed that it is only through determiniation that I keep moving.

I hate this.

 

[Deleted member 541]

Hey Zam,

HUGS......We all have crappy times... The one thing that we HAVE to do .......Is put one foot in front of the other. Keep moving toward healing. You were at least aware of your attitude, and apologized. That's a start. Now.... What was bothering you this weekend? What was in the way of not having a good time?

Ease up on yourself...

More hugs,

Wen

 

[Zamboni]

Wendy

Hi,
My daughter said that her heart was broken due to the divorce and it just broke my heart again. I do try so hard to be a good father and it just spun me.
With this and all the other stuff. I just feel so bad. Thank you for your response.

-Zam