Emerg Services Just when i thought it couldn’t get any worse

[Jag65]

I was making ground on my PTSD from my many years as an officer and being on a disability retirement. Now my bother was tragically killed in a car crash a few days ago. He was my best friend and we were only 8 months apart so we have always been very close. My dad died at an early age 45 and now, 16 years later my brother, who is 44.

This is a major blow and has spun me back down. Enough is enough. When will all this crap stop.

 

[Freida]

I'm so sorry! That is awful , awful news. I know there is nothing I can say to help but I am here for you....

 

[Deleted member 44579]

I'm so sorry @Jag65.... It's awful and it's going to be very hard.... I hope you have some support around you. Take care.....

 

[LuckiLee]

@Jag65, condolences to you and your family. We're here when you need us.

 

[Joan]

How horrible. So sorry. Try to take care of you.

 

[EveHarrington]

Hugs.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

I'm so very sorry @Jag65 over the loss of your brother. Sending condolences.

 

[ladee]

I am so sorry for the loss of your brother.
Please remember we are here for you.

 

[Jag65]

Thank you all for the well wishes. It’s just so hard as after my dads death, my brother was the one person, besides my wife, who I could talk to that I didn’t feel I was being judged.

I’ve long said I must be cursed because it seems like all of the bad stuff just rolls in like waves in to ocean, one right after another.

I’m still fighting with my state pension fund to change the status of my retirement to job related and SS has been in the process, the very first step, for nearly a year. In addition I received news that I am pre diabetic, my cholesterol is boarderline and my testosterone is very low. Combine that with the years of PTSD, anxiety, and depression and the death of my brother, I think I am about to go crazy.

I need some stability so I can stop dreading the future and focus on me getting healthy.

Thanks for letting me rant.

 

[ladee]

Here for you and listeing.
This is a lot at one time, especially looking your brother.
Keep sharing. You are not being judged here, you are being heard and supported.
Gentle hugs if you accept.