Lack Of Coordinated Care?

[Punky143]

There's a disconnect, I think or am I paranoid and feeling abandoned? I see my T once a week but not next week. My daughter, she needs me, to be strong for her, to do things for her but I struggle. I struggle when doing everything because I'm "switching" all the time. Everything is triggering for me so I'm always trying to look normal. I don't know how to seek help from others because I'm so far down this path that even I don't understand.

 

[EveHarrington]

Hi,

Can you clarify what you mean by coordinated care? Usually when I think of coordinated care it is in reference to communication between my health care professionals but I'm not sure if that's what you mean.

Thanks.

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome to the 'wonderful world' of my needs are not everybody else's priorities. You could see this as a disadvantage or you could endeavor to accept your reliance on your shrink and the unavailability as a challenge and an opportunity to self actualize.

You're here, on the forum seeking help from others, take heart... there's some weapons grade people here.

 

[Punky143]

Sorry I didn't make it more clear earlier. It's hard to speak specifically about a situation that has impacted my family lately but that added to my already hell. My husband and I were in marriage counseling but there was a mix up in scheduling, spring sports were begining and I found it to be very overwhelming like everything. No idea how to trust and work with another provider and be in the company of my husband and both he and the lady had no idea my mind would be gone. It was hell really. My husband did most of the talking and I tried so hard to stay up with what he was saying so when asked something they'd know I was trying and paid attention. We haven't been back since Jan maybe. I believe I scared the t away, oh well, welcome to my world. Now I need to make an appointment for my kid, for counseling and how am I going to do this? You have to realize I'm in the one foot in front of the other mode. The "people", voices, they are very much chaotic right now at all times minus my time with my kid. I'd like to be able to tell you where I fall within DID but I was given the 50 question rating method and yes Amnesia checks out but she was going to get back to me but that was possibly at least a month and a half ago. Back to calling and making the appt. for my child, the thought alone takes me away......so not only do I have to reveal my personal info. because no matter what, when she meets me there will be obvious signs I'm not normal. The visit topic alone is so triggering. I have people instructing me to make sure I do this and that but at the end of the day, nothing. I know people will encourage me to trust x,y, or z but I'm not that kind of person anymore. I believe I lost the only long term best friend I've ever had and throughout the years I kept my mental health separate so I could just be that normal friend. Then life got hard, then harder and continues and about a year ago I trusted to tell her just a little more than some other "friends". Now, she's gone and so are the "friends" only to be replaced by the fake friends and convince friends. She tells me that's fine, you don't need anyone anyway but we're being too loud. So, I have 1 hour a week with the only person who knows to what degree my DID effects me and my daily function. The other 6 days are spent making sure we're blending in, struggling to make it through another hour of the day. Hope I've clarified everything now. Thank you