Lauries Trauma's In A Thread

[Deleted member 20280]

May I add one thing to @sun seeker 's post. At the end of the day my trauma past is in no way comparable to anyone else on this site and I would never seek to belittle another member in any way. @otakujome as Sun seeker says, you survived, Sun Seeker survived, I survived. This forum IMHO is made up of survivors of a trauma past.

Quite simply put, we all survived and none of us are a better or worse sufferer or survivor than another.

I extend :hug:s to everyone if accepted.

 

[moonbeam]

That is so powerful I don't think anything I can write will portray how powerful that post is. But I'll try.

It is incredible for you to share such a personal story of your traums. You are so strong for surviving it and for being willing to open up and speak on it. You are right you shouldn't feel any guilt or shame.

You started in a shitty place but you are a brilliant and worthwhile person and it is so amazing to see the progress you are making towards healing.

 

[theotherside]

My sibling also blamed me too. On top of all the abuse i got already..and then to be blamed my whole childhood for things i had no control over...i was a baby. When she was older told me she dropped me on my head and used to hurt me all the time because she hated and blamed me. She was a teen when i was born. I was also locked in a closet all day when they were suppose to be watching me. I can so relate to your post. Last night was another night of angering and crying myself to sleep. It was one incident that i had thought about..or i should say it was an intrusive thought that wouldnt go away..so i guess i was processing it right? I was angry and sobbing and trying to comfort myself...
Im so new to all. Is that what processing means? Im starting therapy soon and have been evaluated 2 times and got the diagnoses of ptsd...
Sorry for making this long..
Thanks for sharing

 

[NarcSis]

"You is kind, you is smart and you is important." (Abileen Clark, The Help, 2011)

and most importantly you is brave and you is strong. Hugs.

 

[Neverthesame]

Good on you Laurie. Surviving is hard, facing that which you survived is harder. Good luck on your journey.

 

[Em C.]

*hugs* to Laurie. Also I know a good school with a psych program.. *cough cough in Canada...* *cough cough my school*

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Thinking of you, Mr Laurie, glad you're here :hug: :hug: :hug: :) ;)

 

[Saint Nik]

How does it feel @Mr Laurie to get it all out and expose the abuse? Putting the light on to the darkness you always felt inside of you?
You should feel bravery, it is what you are! I so hope it is healing and empowering for you.

I too have started my own trauma diary and since I've started I can't stop! Like you though, there is so much abuse, so much hurt, so much pain and so much trauma!
I hope you keep being open, no more bottling it up any more. Release the toxic demons :devilish: no more pain, no more tears, no more abuse.

I hope you accept my many :hug::hug::hug:s

 

[Deleted member 20280]

One thing I have learnt since being a member is simple. To release the pain I am totally open, sometimes too graphic in detail but for me I find being as open about my abuses frees me from all the bottled up emotional turmoil and I am released and undurdoned.

I totally accept all :hug:s

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

Hey Laurie,

Great profile pic!
Just wanted to drop by and see what's up with you. Hope you're doing well, you're still welcome to Skype with me any day, just send me a pm (I don't open Skype very frequently).

I'm currently a lot on other forums regarding my new found gender crisis :p

Hug if you want one, hope you're making the same kind of great progress you were making earlier (when I was around a lot).