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wisteria
Confident
*sigh* watched a video titled "do we gaslight ourselves" and didn't really get it. I know my ex (and possibly my mother??) was an excellent gaslighter, but I can't wrap my head around how I now treat myself in regards to gaslighting.
I took some CBD oil to help with my anxiety today, second time ever taking it, first time was years ago. Didn't care for it the first time cuz it made me a zombie, but today it seemed to help with the anxiety. Now I'm drinking, which is also something I don't do, but I seem to be in self-destruct mode. I felt so disconnected today, part of me was screaming for help and another part was angry. distracted myself with some yard work but I'm so fricken tired of living this way. maybe i am just done. except I got my pups so...........
*sigh*
i don't know what to do.
i tried to attend another online support group of sorts....got the time wrong, came back at the right time, and then had an equipment failure! it's so frustrating to make such an effort only to get denied!!!
I took some CBD oil to help with my anxiety today, second time ever taking it, first time was years ago. Didn't care for it the first time cuz it made me a zombie, but today it seemed to help with the anxiety. Now I'm drinking, which is also something I don't do, but I seem to be in self-destruct mode. I felt so disconnected today, part of me was screaming for help and another part was angry. distracted myself with some yard work but I'm so fricken tired of living this way. maybe i am just done. except I got my pups so...........
*sigh*
i don't know what to do.
i tried to attend another online support group of sorts....got the time wrong, came back at the right time, and then had an equipment failure! it's so frustrating to make such an effort only to get denied!!!