bright_morning
Bronze Member
I just want to report back here and say that for now I am having great success with marijuana as medicine. I am finally over the hurdle of feeling weird about it, and am also getting used to dosage. Its a real blessing that I can get it for PTSD/anxiety/insomnia here where I live.
It took me a while to get used to the idea of using marijuana at all since there is a variety of opinions out there, but the more I settle into the peaceful reality of my life these days the more I am able to accept help from whence it arrives.
Last night I went on a date with my wife. I used a little beforehand and after the buzzy part settled out I had 4-5 hours of the most present, lucid, state I have had in 30 years. I was able to be in a public place watching Cirque Du Soleil and not be forced to completely dissociate just to participate. I don't quite understand how, but it really helps me to "un-dissociate", which is something I have real trouble with. The only drawback is sometimes that can be a little jarring for me as I actually being present is very, very new.
As I have stated before I don't think marijuana is a solution in itself, but I think it can be good for some of us as an adjunct to solid therapy. Its a godsend for me.
It took me a while to get used to the idea of using marijuana at all since there is a variety of opinions out there, but the more I settle into the peaceful reality of my life these days the more I am able to accept help from whence it arrives.
Last night I went on a date with my wife. I used a little beforehand and after the buzzy part settled out I had 4-5 hours of the most present, lucid, state I have had in 30 years. I was able to be in a public place watching Cirque Du Soleil and not be forced to completely dissociate just to participate. I don't quite understand how, but it really helps me to "un-dissociate", which is something I have real trouble with. The only drawback is sometimes that can be a little jarring for me as I actually being present is very, very new.
As I have stated before I don't think marijuana is a solution in itself, but I think it can be good for some of us as an adjunct to solid therapy. Its a godsend for me.