I'm not sure where to start. It's really hard to be a mom let alone a mom with mental health issues. I want to be there for her and be happy and I feel so guilty I'm not happy all the time with her. I try so hard and I have really good moments and even really good days but at the end of the night it just all comes crashing down. I feel like I'm drowning while keeping her afloat, and I shouldn't blame her and I don't I just am scared I'll never be what she needs or deserves.