It is hard trying to go through life with having flashbacks and nightmares most of the time. It hurts when I see my wife crying from watch me have tremors and convulsions from my nightmares. When I do have them I relive the situation in vivid details and still feel the pain from each situation. What makes it hard to deal with is being able to talk to people about it who understand what I been through. I have keep the majority of it to myself and I have tried my very best to explain to my wife my dreams what I am going through she is my rock and listens and allows me to cry and to get it off my chest. She ask me what did you go through you keep having flashbacks from I just tell her something I do not want people to go through.
Watching my friends die in front of me being with in a arms reach and watching it happen having to fight for life and death situations. It takes a major toil on the body something that is not cured overnight. Trying to go to the VA for help waiting all day in lines and not being able to be seen is a joke. I gave up on going there. But I have been able to heal one day at a time my Faith, Family, and Wife. I have a fear of getting prescription meds see all the side effects it can have do not want to take anything that will cause the conditions to get worse.
One day at a time I am getting better with the conditions I face using natural medicine mainly essential oils. My ptsd is a lot better to deal with I still have my bad days but I am having a lot more good days than bad and being able to sleep peacefully.
Watching my friends die in front of me being with in a arms reach and watching it happen having to fight for life and death situations. It takes a major toil on the body something that is not cured overnight. Trying to go to the VA for help waiting all day in lines and not being able to be seen is a joke. I gave up on going there. But I have been able to heal one day at a time my Faith, Family, and Wife. I have a fear of getting prescription meds see all the side effects it can have do not want to take anything that will cause the conditions to get worse.
One day at a time I am getting better with the conditions I face using natural medicine mainly essential oils. My ptsd is a lot better to deal with I still have my bad days but I am having a lot more good days than bad and being able to sleep peacefully.
