Mommy dearest

[Amirsmom]

Lately i feel my suicidal ideations are turning to violent ones. I flipped on my mom last night to the point that i got in her face. I wont go into why i got mad, just that it was a typical reaction of heightened emotion when treated like im just a bad person not working on her problems. I told her she didmt have to work on my problems, just know what it is and give me understanding and love sometimes. She told me i needed to check into inpatient ladt night. I kind of agreed with her other than leaving my one year old even if i know hell be fine there. I called crisis hotline and she talked me out of going because she said if something triggers me there it may turn to involuntary. Now im scared to even discuss with my pdoc cuz im afraid shell commit me and who would be my babys mother.

 

[Deleted member 541]

I think that you are dealing with 2 different issues. SI and anger. Figure out what’s causing the anger and work on finding a way to get it under control. As many of us here say... PTSD isn’t an excuse for bad behavior....

 

[KwanYingirl]

The best thing you can do for your child is to be healthy. It’s hard to make decisions when we’re activated. I agree that being admitted can be triggering andvin the long run, we have to live in the world, not a bubble. You show self care and that is huge. If your therapist doesn’t recommend it, and your doc agrees with her I think they are more objective than your mother. She sounds like she’s acting out of fear. Perhaps more frequent therapy sessions would be of benefit right now. Try to even out the peaks and valleys of PTSD.

 

[Amirsmom]

I think that you are dealing with 2 different issues. SI and anger. Figure out what’s causing the ang...

What is IS?


Oh suicidal ideations ok.