Monkeys driving the distorted cognition bus

[ladee]

Thanks @Ragdoll Circus, for tending the monkeys for me !!! Some ornery little bastards aren't they !!! And will take the peace and calm from you as a very very special gift , I honor that.. sending love to you lady !!!

 

[EveHarrington]

Please don't take any offense to this but I absolutely love the imagery the thread title puts in my head. It's quite comical. I know this is a serious thread and I don't mean to take away from that, but thank you for putting a smile on my face. And maybe the next time I have my own monkeys driving my crazy bus of sorts, I'll pause and remember this image and it will make me smile; taking the edge off a bit. :)

 

[ladee]

No problem @EveHarrington, I meant for it to be funny... like 'here I go again'.... so , yes,imagine away... it helped me too !!!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I have shared before that I call the noise in my head, "monkey voices", referring to the constant chattering.

OMG I have this but never heard it called monkey voices lol. Today the "crowded lunchroom" noise is gone (unsure why or what it was) but the constant, unending, intrustive thoughts come fast and i cant seem to stop it. I want to scream "stop" but i have a feeling it wont work lol.

So really paying attention to the distorted cognition this time.

I have trouble reading the list of congitive distortions when not "going for the ride" and when on the ride i cant seem to pick out "yep this is this distorortions. Im trying to get used to the list and memorize it so it will be easier but i dont think, at this point, i can pick them out. Dont know as ive never tried so maybe i'll try that. Whenever i try to challenge it, it gets louder, more persistant, stronger so unsure about this. Its awesome that you are attempting this!

 

[ladee]

@lostforgottensoul , you describe the trouble I have with this also... but guess I didn't realize I needed to 'challenge' the monkey voices. Some times things are just too simple for me... and like you am trying to familiarize myself, so things won't get bad....
The good news is, after @The Albatross broke things down for me, it was so simple... and yes the noise escalated, but I just spoke louder !!!
I know today why I was having trouble mentally ingesting what was being share with me yesterday... I must have been running a low grade fever,, had chills and copious amounts of sweating last night, for most of the night.. I rarely get sick, so guess I wasn't paying attention..Woke up at one point and my hair was soaked, my clothes, the bed...
Am more clear headed today....
but yes, try talking back to it !!! It felt like a weight had been lifted.... positive is always better than the rabbit hole any day... will be sending energy for you to apply them.. you and I are on this part of our journey together... thank God for this forum and the people on it.... sending you hugs LFS....

 

[lostforgottensoul]

@ladee thats what ive been doing forever now. My thoughts say go left i say f*ck my thoughts and go right but thats incredably hard. Its a fight internally, more of a war, but in therory the more i fight them the easier it will be.

Think of it like pushing at your comfort zone line, you will always run back to your comfort zones but the more you push at it, the further it will move. Its the same thing.

 

[ladee]

Thanks @lostforgottensoul , good to know there is a method to the madness and that there is a positive end result... I just know that today I feel much more free because I have been supported and given suggestions on how to move out of the darkness... That's what I am here for, to add to my toolbox for healing. Thanks for your support.:hug:

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Im glad i can help @ladee or that it helps to know that you arent alone. :hug:

 

[ladee]

@lostforgottensoul, Both of those... thanks again.

 

[ms spock]

I have had a serious challenge with distorted thinking @ladee - I started this thread - https://www.myptsd.com/threads/name-that-distorted-cognition-thought-perception.54277/ - I don't know if it would interest you, but I will put it here, just in case it is relevant to you. All the best.

 

[ladee]

Thanks @Ms Spock, I think I have posted there, but thank you for the link again... sending you gentle hugs for taking care of all of us !!!

 

[Whyteferret]

@ladee i love the visual of monkeys driving a bus. And them chattering in people's heads.
So, so true. I call mine "The Committee." Always there, passing judgement on who I am, what I do, how I act, how I cope....

I find mine have themes
1 my fault (whatever it is)
2 I'm worthless
3. Black and white thinking
4. Catastrophizing- I am very skilled at this.

Sometimes challenging them helps. Sometimes it makes it worse because I start doubting everything in my own head.

Bright Blessings!