I have always been left out in school, always been that girl that always were here for people but always got shit from them. When I were 9 I thought I had some friends. I was almost always hanging out with 3 girls in my school, even if they were my friends they made me feel really left out and hated, but i didn´t have anyone else.
One day after school 2 of them asked me if I wanted to hang out after school "this was something new for me as no one wanted to be with me" I got really happy and made my biggest mistake ever, I said yes. We walked home to one of them after school and when we got there I called my dad and said that I was hanging out with some friends and would be home later.
After an hour or so they started to act really weird, that made me really uncomfortab so I really wanted to go home, but for me it was to late. That was the moment they sexual abused me. I tried everything to make them stop. I cried, I told them to stop and tried to kick with my legs so they would get away from me but everything they said was that if I told anyone I would be dead before I knew it.
I´m 19 now and I´ve not talked with them girls for maybe 8 years. When I´m thinking back to this day it´s really easy to understand that they had been planing all this. they had been talking and agreed on to rape me. The thing that hurts the most is that I thought they were my friends and I thought I could trust them.
So fast I see them somewere one of them are looking at me like she is scared of something, she knows what she have done and she knows that she abused me.
I´ve also been bullied for over 10 years. I found it really hard to trust people. there is only 3 people that I can trust to 100%, two of them are my celebrity crush (they are twins) I´ve met them and they are always so nice to me, they don´t know about this but they have helpt me to get my confidence back, they always makes me feel safe. they also make me smile, the most amazing guys I´ve ever met. and then I also got my best friend.
It still hurts me, so fast I get flash backs it breaks me down. I don´t really know what I´m going to do.
(sorry for bad english)
One day after school 2 of them asked me if I wanted to hang out after school "this was something new for me as no one wanted to be with me" I got really happy and made my biggest mistake ever, I said yes. We walked home to one of them after school and when we got there I called my dad and said that I was hanging out with some friends and would be home later.
After an hour or so they started to act really weird, that made me really uncomfortab so I really wanted to go home, but for me it was to late. That was the moment they sexual abused me. I tried everything to make them stop. I cried, I told them to stop and tried to kick with my legs so they would get away from me but everything they said was that if I told anyone I would be dead before I knew it.
I´m 19 now and I´ve not talked with them girls for maybe 8 years. When I´m thinking back to this day it´s really easy to understand that they had been planing all this. they had been talking and agreed on to rape me. The thing that hurts the most is that I thought they were my friends and I thought I could trust them.
So fast I see them somewere one of them are looking at me like she is scared of something, she knows what she have done and she knows that she abused me.
I´ve also been bullied for over 10 years. I found it really hard to trust people. there is only 3 people that I can trust to 100%, two of them are my celebrity crush (they are twins) I´ve met them and they are always so nice to me, they don´t know about this but they have helpt me to get my confidence back, they always makes me feel safe. they also make me smile, the most amazing guys I´ve ever met. and then I also got my best friend.
It still hurts me, so fast I get flash backs it breaks me down. I don´t really know what I´m going to do.
(sorry for bad english)
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