I am still feeling I am bad, emotional reasoning and thinking I am bad. Or thinking I am bad and feeling I am bad.
There was a time that I felt so needy and desperate for love and care, that I could never turn down food, as food was my family and friend, bit by bit I am improving so much. I am starting to meet my own emotional needs. I am willing to validate my own feelings. I have changed a lot of thinking around food. It is a big change.
I have changed my cognitive distortions around eating so much. I am not eating all the time to numb out and be checked out of life. I did really well yesterday I didn't eat when we went to a cafe as I knew I wanted to eat later, a dinner, at a friend's place. I didn't want to overeat. I did do a bit of comfort eating before I left, but overall l am still doing so much better. So I had a cup of peppermint tea.
I need to do more cognitive thought busting down, but I am improving. I am seeing more and more that they are only thoughts, and even though they are my thoughts I don't have to believe them, and buy into them.