Friday
Sponsor
You’re extremely lucky... many -if not most- kinds of blood pressure medications are exceptionally lethal, even with small overdoses. You must have somehow taken the exact right combination for them to counter each other instead of stroking out, suffering a heart attack, aneurysm, or falling into a coma with your brain starved of oxygen rendering you severely brain damaged at best, brain dead at worst.
That said, it’s still very possible that you’ve suffered serious organ damage from this attempt. I can not recommend more strongly that you seek medical attention to look for dead cardiac muscle & failing or distressed organs (blood and urine test). The sooner the better. Today if possible.
That’s how most successful suicide attempts work. There’s this moment of peace, clarity, sudden relaxation, even euphoria... and bang. Between one breath and the next, no hesitation... or even weeks later as people wrap up their affairs. That’s no longer ideation, nor intent, but being actively suicidal.
“But they were doing some much better! :arghh;“ is heard from countless friends and family who had been interacting with them during that time. No. Actually they’d already come to the decision to kill themselves. That’s why they seemed better. They weren’t fighting it anymore. So they could cheerfully socialize, go to work, clean their house, travel, pay their bills, play a sport or instrument they haven’t touched in months, host a party and be the life of it... all the things that were beyond them when they were spending every last bit of energy trying to stay alive.
It’s dangerous as f*ck.
And super common. As in probably the most common thing heard from people who survived serious attempts (bridge jumping - but hit the water just right; eating their gun, but the round exited their neck instead of the base of their brain; massive overdoses like yours, etc. ) I just didn’t care anymore, and I acted before I was even aware of what I was doing. It was that fast. And then it was too late to stop. I was already falling, had already pulled the trigger, etc.
Seriously Dangerous as f*ck. I really hope you laid it out with your T, today.
That said, it’s still very possible that you’ve suffered serious organ damage from this attempt. I can not recommend more strongly that you seek medical attention to look for dead cardiac muscle & failing or distressed organs (blood and urine test). The sooner the better. Today if possible.
That’s how most successful suicide attempts work. There’s this moment of peace, clarity, sudden relaxation, even euphoria... and bang. Between one breath and the next, no hesitation... or even weeks later as people wrap up their affairs. That’s no longer ideation, nor intent, but being actively suicidal.
“But they were doing some much better! :arghh;“ is heard from countless friends and family who had been interacting with them during that time. No. Actually they’d already come to the decision to kill themselves. That’s why they seemed better. They weren’t fighting it anymore. So they could cheerfully socialize, go to work, clean their house, travel, pay their bills, play a sport or instrument they haven’t touched in months, host a party and be the life of it... all the things that were beyond them when they were spending every last bit of energy trying to stay alive.
It’s dangerous as f*ck.
And super common. As in probably the most common thing heard from people who survived serious attempts (bridge jumping - but hit the water just right; eating their gun, but the round exited their neck instead of the base of their brain; massive overdoses like yours, etc. ) I just didn’t care anymore, and I acted before I was even aware of what I was doing. It was that fast. And then it was too late to stop. I was already falling, had already pulled the trigger, etc.
Seriously Dangerous as f*ck. I really hope you laid it out with your T, today.
