Sorry in advance for knowing this is going to be a long post but have a dr's apt tomorrow with a new dr and am going to try again for a referral to someone in my state or adjoining state that will help me for ptsd.
I am a 55 year old female, my issues started when I was 21 with a marriage that was 7 years too long. It included physical, sexual and verbal abuse. When I finally was financially able to leave and found a safe place out of state he harassed my mother until she gave him the phone number to where I was and he hounded me until he shot himself while on the phone with me. I had an operator connect me to the 911 district to where he was to report the shooting and then called his family. Long story short the family hounded me into coming back because they said I would give him the will to live and ended up marrying him. (Stupid me, young and stupid) = 7 years of horror. When we would argue and I told him I wanted a divorce he would rip his shirt open and point to his scar and say "I did this for you". I couldn't sleep had night terrors, couldn't eat, went into a deep depression. My last employment caught onto the abuse when I walked in with my face cut and bruised. One of my co-workers said "You can't blame your horse for that one can you?". Was pulled aside by a co-worker and was told to get help or he was going to kill me. I got to the point that I couldn't function and went to a psychotherapist and was told I had an emotional breakdown. I then went to a psychologist and was told I had severe depression and ptsd and was put on medication.
I finally got out and married my childhood sweetheart, still was having issues, night terrors, panic attacks and not able to handle stress very well but able to function.
Dec of 2005 moved out of state and here's where my issues have escalated, my then 16 year old son was shot in our bedroom only feet away from me when my husband was moving the rifles on the wall hanger, a shot gun that was loaded but on safety went off just as my son walked up to the bedroom door and hit him in the chest. I don't remember much but what I do still haunts me daily. He survived, spent 72 days in the hospital. I'm typing this in the same room where it happened.
No one will help me in this area. One dr said I was just depressed and put me on Prozac. For several months still had "break out" panic attacks, night terrors of my ex husband and what happened to our son. Went to another dr and same thing "Prozac". I was a semi functioning idiot, no sleep, night terrors and panic attacks.
2012 I was diagnosed with breast cancer and I slam dunked, BAD. My husband was working out of state and my son was non understanding. Went back to the dr and asked for something to help me. A friend suggested I ask for zanax (sp?) and the dr treated me like a drug abuser I had to sign off on some type of medical sheet and had blood pulled. She left me in that room from 9:30 til 2:45, she forgot about me.
Put me on Welbutrin and I had a bad reaction to it. Then put me on something else and I had a seizure.
Went to another dr and told to take benedryl to help me sleep.
Last dr put me on clonazepam 0.5mg and would do a referral for me to a psychologist but got told later that I would have to find one myself for ptsd. That medication does not help. I feel like I'm breaking and the drs won't help me. Is there some type of test I can demand to get help?
I am a 55 year old female, my issues started when I was 21 with a marriage that was 7 years too long. It included physical, sexual and verbal abuse. When I finally was financially able to leave and found a safe place out of state he harassed my mother until she gave him the phone number to where I was and he hounded me until he shot himself while on the phone with me. I had an operator connect me to the 911 district to where he was to report the shooting and then called his family. Long story short the family hounded me into coming back because they said I would give him the will to live and ended up marrying him. (Stupid me, young and stupid) = 7 years of horror. When we would argue and I told him I wanted a divorce he would rip his shirt open and point to his scar and say "I did this for you". I couldn't sleep had night terrors, couldn't eat, went into a deep depression. My last employment caught onto the abuse when I walked in with my face cut and bruised. One of my co-workers said "You can't blame your horse for that one can you?". Was pulled aside by a co-worker and was told to get help or he was going to kill me. I got to the point that I couldn't function and went to a psychotherapist and was told I had an emotional breakdown. I then went to a psychologist and was told I had severe depression and ptsd and was put on medication.
I finally got out and married my childhood sweetheart, still was having issues, night terrors, panic attacks and not able to handle stress very well but able to function.
Dec of 2005 moved out of state and here's where my issues have escalated, my then 16 year old son was shot in our bedroom only feet away from me when my husband was moving the rifles on the wall hanger, a shot gun that was loaded but on safety went off just as my son walked up to the bedroom door and hit him in the chest. I don't remember much but what I do still haunts me daily. He survived, spent 72 days in the hospital. I'm typing this in the same room where it happened.
No one will help me in this area. One dr said I was just depressed and put me on Prozac. For several months still had "break out" panic attacks, night terrors of my ex husband and what happened to our son. Went to another dr and same thing "Prozac". I was a semi functioning idiot, no sleep, night terrors and panic attacks.
2012 I was diagnosed with breast cancer and I slam dunked, BAD. My husband was working out of state and my son was non understanding. Went back to the dr and asked for something to help me. A friend suggested I ask for zanax (sp?) and the dr treated me like a drug abuser I had to sign off on some type of medical sheet and had blood pulled. She left me in that room from 9:30 til 2:45, she forgot about me.
Put me on Welbutrin and I had a bad reaction to it. Then put me on something else and I had a seizure.
Went to another dr and told to take benedryl to help me sleep.
Last dr put me on clonazepam 0.5mg and would do a referral for me to a psychologist but got told later that I would have to find one myself for ptsd. That medication does not help. I feel like I'm breaking and the drs won't help me. Is there some type of test I can demand to get help?
