Hello Abbey frog,
You are safe here, you are in the only place where we all understand each other, one place where no one will ever judge you, and will try to help each other every time it's needed.
I'm a sufferer myself, I have been suffering from PTSD for three years now but only two years ago I've been diagnosed with complex PTSD.
It varies and every-time it comes in different forms, so you always feel new about it. But the good thing is, you realize how strong you are, you realize how good you can actually cope with the whole thing. Ad what's even better, is that it goes away.
It is just a temporary state of body and mind. That's how I like to think about it.
I you wish all the very best of luck.
Hugs.