Sufferer New To Diagnosis - Childhood Abuse

[Cam569]

I was diagnosed with PTSD, codependency, detachment issues about 3 weeks ago. My marriage is falling apart. I can't get him to talk to me, he says he tried before and I didn't listen. I was unaware of the self defeating behaviors I was living. I knew something was off, different for me but I didn't know what. My mom got with/married eventually, a sociopath who was also a child predator. We spent 10 yrs trying to stay alive. We lived if that what you call it. Never knowing from one min to another day or night what was going to set him off or if you were going to get thought this one. There was sexual abuse, sexual humiliation, emotional and mental abuse. As well as physical and then the torture. Thats what I call it. Being striped down so large water bugs could crawl all over me, because I was scared of bugs and he was going to fix me. Made to listen while my 8 yr old sis was locked in a small dark closet to cure her scared of the dark. I was slapped every time I tried to comfort her or help her. Many many more some I still cant deal with. My mother checked out for most of the 10 yrs by being gone when ever possible. Parents divorced when I was 6, dad uninvolved.

My problem is that there are no support groups I can find here and I need people. I have no friends and one or two of my husbands family I can call on. We do not currently have any insurance and I am having a hard time finding any where for help.

I don't know what the next step is.......

I received my diagnosis from a therapist I saw in Florida while visiting my mom. I had a few phone interviews and texts the weeks before i met her. Then I had 3 acupuncture visits and two 3 hr sessions with the therapist.

My husband says he is not ready to talk to me and has talked about leaving which triggers my trust and abandonment issues. He also spent about 2 months talking to a "friend" who is a single woman for about 7-8 hours a day and ignoring me and my calls or texts. My heart is broken on top of dealing with everything else. He says no big deal but now I think he is talking to her on fb chat so i can track or see. I am paranoid and obbsesed. I don't want to be like this and I don't want to chase him to her.

Thanks for reading,
Cam

 

[a3a2]

Welcome to the forum, Cam.

 

[intothelight]

Hi Cam,

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)

Right now, the best thing you can do is just focus on you and getting better. I am sorry that your husband has checked out, but there is nothing you can do to change his behavior as only he can do that. It is unacceptable that he is texting or talking to another woman, but it is up to you to set the boundaries of what you can and cannot tolerate.

Seek counseling as that will provide you with the tools to heal. I also hope you find the information and support here beneficial to you healing.

Take care.

Debbie