I joined this support group several years ago. I fell out of the practice of checking in. Honestly, I don’t remember why. In some ways I was doing better back then, but I’ve been doing much worse the last few years. I keep getting told by various health practitioners that it would help me to have a close community of supporters… which is a lovely idea. I agree! I would love to have a close community of supporters. That is really hard to find when your family was abusive, you married into a different abusive family and most people are so happy with their pleasant lives that they don’t want to hear about one that is rife with pain and difficulty.
It seems as though I can have a few relationships that are superficial to the point where those friends don’t even ask why I’ve been on long-term disability for 1.5 years. But, if I try to look for a deep relationship, people are quick to say “PTSD is too serious for me. I can’t be your friend. You’re too needy.” You know what kinds of people are needy? Those of us whose needs are not met by other people! If only a few people would bother to care about a few aspects of my life I would be healthier and happier. But I’m very alone.
My husband is a narcissist. After weighing pros and cons, I’m better off staying in the marriage. But it’s really difficult and I have no one to talk to. I looked through my contacts on my phone tonight and I literally have zero people I can call when my husband has hurt my feelings and refuses to consider apologizing. It was the most suicidal I have ever felt. I thought of calling a suicide hotline just to have someone to talk to about anything. It would feel nice just to chat with someone. I also thought of joining a friend-finding app, but then I’m right back to dealing with a bunch of people who likely don’t understand hardship and struggle. But then I remembered this support group.
I’m hoping that maybe I can connect with some of you sometimes. I know that people here understand difficulty and loneliness. I’m not very good at technology, so I’m not sure how to use the site well, but I hope to learn it enough to be able to connect with others.
It seems as though I can have a few relationships that are superficial to the point where those friends don’t even ask why I’ve been on long-term disability for 1.5 years. But, if I try to look for a deep relationship, people are quick to say “PTSD is too serious for me. I can’t be your friend. You’re too needy.” You know what kinds of people are needy? Those of us whose needs are not met by other people! If only a few people would bother to care about a few aspects of my life I would be healthier and happier. But I’m very alone.
My husband is a narcissist. After weighing pros and cons, I’m better off staying in the marriage. But it’s really difficult and I have no one to talk to. I looked through my contacts on my phone tonight and I literally have zero people I can call when my husband has hurt my feelings and refuses to consider apologizing. It was the most suicidal I have ever felt. I thought of calling a suicide hotline just to have someone to talk to about anything. It would feel nice just to chat with someone. I also thought of joining a friend-finding app, but then I’m right back to dealing with a bunch of people who likely don’t understand hardship and struggle. But then I remembered this support group.
I’m hoping that maybe I can connect with some of you sometimes. I know that people here understand difficulty and loneliness. I’m not very good at technology, so I’m not sure how to use the site well, but I hope to learn it enough to be able to connect with others.
Last edited by a moderator: