Not Sure What To Do Or Where To Go After Being Brutalized By Police Because I Have Ptsd

[digger]

Can you call them back and explain the situation as fully as possible, including the stuff about him preventing you leaving the house, that you outlined in your first post in this thread. You are saying that physically you don't feel threatened, but can I ask what happens if you try to get past him physically to leave when he blocks the door? Maybe ask them if they have any drop ins or appointments as well where you could maybe talk about this with someone.

I'm assuming, as you haven't mentioned it and are saying you have no support, that you don't currently have a therapist? If you do, have you ever tried a session with your husband there so they can help explain how his behaviour is not helping at these times?

 

[shimmerz]

I think I'm a bit shocked that we are the diagnosed ones who have VERY real involuntary behavior yet we are the ones who are supposed to be more forgiving of the normies than they are of us?

This is entirely correct. I hung around a relationship that was similar to what is posted above by @Fadeaway and I am going to say it mattered not what the intention was. I kept thinking the intention was not meant to be cruel. In the end I ended up in a basket full of trouble. Intention doesn't mean sh*t. It is the result that matters.

Who cares about details here? It is what is happening to @Fadeaway that is important.

I was lucky as I had already established a relationship with a Women's Centre and when the crap hit the fan and I couldn't deal anymore they allowed me into a shelter although with some consideration. It is not helpful that the police have been called and @Fadeaway looks like the problem here.

It is important to understand what state you are in and the resources available there. I looked on your profile and couldn't check to see where you are from. If you have a good friend online that you trust can you let them know where you are at and allow them to research for you a place that may take you in? I don't suggest hospitals but instead a women's centre that understands abuse that is not physical.

 

[Ronin]

@Fadeaway, how are you with things like *food*? Do you have something to eat at least twice a day? You're gonna need to have food to stay functional, the helplessness and anxiety won't ease if you have nothing to go on. You said you don't know a single soul - is that really so? Not doubting your words, just saying people at gas stations, people in malls, hell people that just walk out their dogs, can be helpful. A lot won't give a damn about a stranger, but on another hand a lot *do*. You need to focus on yourself enough to know your life matters, and it *does*, and it always *will*.

Edited: Or churches. I know like every American city's got one. Could you ask about a place to stay *there*? Eventually just *talk to people*? It might help ease your feeling of being completely alone RL, even if the advice or whatever is said is shit, the very sense of not being all alone can help you start thinking about options differently.