Hi Cal.
Much welcome to the forum. I generally don't have a ton of time these days to hit the 'What's New' button, glad I did today so I could see your post. I'm a little goofy about police officers, one day will get myself arrested due to my knee-jerk impulse to run up and hug every, single one I come across. Pretty sure that would a no-no, so have refrained. WAY too long to get into, just were a major part of being the proverbial Good Guys way-back-when.
I can't state this definitively ( or imagine I just spelled that correctly ) but would have to guess there would be other officers with your trauma issue(s) who are members here, actively or no. Sometimes it's very helpful to read what others have been going through. For one thing, gosh, you just don't feel so God-Blessed ALONE with the pain and for another they probably have been on some healing path you might find helpful, you know? I'm awful at navigating sites, even this one which I've been attached to for a few years ( pitiful, I know ), but perhaps try combinations of words in the search thingy ( hee, see? pitiful ) to locate various threads associated with your trauma.
You don't have to post anything you don't feel comfortable about, or at all if it feels dreadful for now. I'm sure someone who knows a lot more on how this place works will answer your post and be a TON more helpful, just thought I'd at least say hi and welcome.
Do take care, Peace to you,
Anni