One Week Sober Today

[bluecat]

Congratulations Jadebear! Thats a great accomplishment : )

Bluecat

 

[jude]

Jadebear, that is great! You should be so proud. Wish I could say the same but drank some last night to get a little sleep. I guess I am not ready to give up the "crutch" yet. My T says it is not any different from prescription meds and we take them to ease the pain. I hope I can be strong soon and deal with it all. Without the meds or drinking. Sometimes I hate myself so very much. I am very sad today. I feel like I have no one who cares. My family wants nothing to do with me and I feel so alone. They do not understand what I am going through. They think that I should be able to just be strong and not let things get to me. They do not understand why I isolate myself and have more or less "dropped me" I am really hurting right now and don't know where to turn.

You are on the right path and hopefully I will get back on it soon. I think you are great and hang in there!

 

[James B.]

Sometimes I hate myself so very much. I am very sad today. I feel like I have no one who cares. My family wants nothing to do with me and I feel so alone.

These are very tough feelings, really hope writing this out helps you some.

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Proud of your determination and control! Great Job!

 

[Jade-]

Two Weeks Today

Two weeks without a single drop of alcohol....I honestly didn't think I could do it, yet I did. :clap:

It hasn't been easy, especially since I have been triggered. And there have been many times the past 2 weeks that I so wanted to, and almost did, but I still didn't.

My life kind of sucks right now and I have alot of shit going on, but at least people can't call me a drunk...

 

[Nighthawk]

I am very proud of you. I know the struggle, not with drinking but with smoking. Stay strong it will get easier.


Nighthawlk

 

[cherryblossom]

Congratulations Jadebear - well done.

Jude, you will get there when the time is right for you. In the mean time, try to stay in control as much as possible, and don't beat yourself up, because that can be very destructive. As I say, in your own time, when you are ready and feeling strong enough.

All the best to you both

cherryblossom

 

[Iam]

That is fantastic Jade! You are so incredibly strong!

 

[James B.]

That's awesome Jadebear.

For me, the harsh raw light of going sober, of feeling like nowhere to hide (so to speak) was always very painful for me. The reality that I was abusing myself with alcohol, plus just becoming less stable in a variety of ways, was a strong motivator in "retiring from drinking". Gradually the craving left, bolstered my system with good food and supplements - glad the craving are gone. They were painful too. Props Jadebear and thanks for posting this.

 

[Jawn]

Way to go Jadebear! Keep up the good work!

Jawn

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Way to go Jadebear! Your courage and strength are an inspiration!

PH

 

[Jade-]

Three Weeks Today

Three weeks now but for some reason it feels like it's been months. It feels good to feel in control of it instead of it controlling me.

It still isn't easy though, especially when I'm stressed or having a bad day. My way of dealing with things was to drink until I didn't feel anymore or until I passed out. I still want to do that at times.

I did have one drink over the weekend. I was very stressed and had a bad day so I made myself a drink. But after I finished it, I didn't want anymore. I thought about how I would feel when I woke up the next day(depressed,anxious,etc.). I thought about how hard I had worked to stop drinking and how it only makes things worse in the long run. That's the first time I've ever stopped at just one. So that's a major milestone.