Panic Panic Panic!!

[Smile]

Don't know why. Maybe I do. Listening to radio and each commercial reminds me of things I need to do that I keep pushing off.

Oh, and fun addition: they keep talking about 9/11. I was there... I don't need a memorial to remind me. In fact I need to NOT be reminded.

Point: advice on how to get anxiety down? Don't work. Have done nothing today... As usual. I know there's mindfulness exercises but feel like that s too much/too long.

Something quick? Already took meds but not helping... At least not yet

 

[Friday]

When I'm being smart I climb under a rock for Veterans Day / Memorial Day.

Same, I don't need any f*cking reminders, and everyone oozing sympathy and crocodile tears and 2 seconds of patriotism and and and and and.... Just kicks me into seriously stressed / triggered (usually by my own self deciding its a brilliant plan to go looking through my old shit :facepalm: ) / furious / emotions / ugh... From so many different angles and places that I can't meet them all, and I tend to melt down or blow up or both.

I usually go camping for about a week (few days before, few days after), & do a sporting thing during those times. Surfing or just hanging out at the beach in Oregon in Sept, Spring Snow if possible in Canada in May. Actually, Canada -full stop- is fantastic as they have different holidays. I <3 Canada. :inlove:

Usually, though, means not always.

Next best is taking a few days off to movie marathon & in other ways just shut off the world. Nope. Not watching, reading, or participating in anything in real time. DVDs & CDs, not TV & radio (not even streaming). Stocking up the fridge for a few days coppasquat, and if I need anything? Ordering it. Because I am seriously f*cking chilling out & shutting off the world.

There are always times I can't do either best or next best... But there are always ways & options to make hard things less hard, blow off some steam. I just need to remember what helps. And do that. And what hurts, and avoid that. It's only for a few days.

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So in the something to help? Looking for the ways you can alter your environment for a few days to manage & blow off stress :D And self care. And ways to be good to yourself.

 

[Smile]

When I'm being smart I climb under a rock for Veterans Day / Memorial Day.

Same, I don't need any f*cki...

Wow, u've really got it down pat! Yeh, hinkering down sounds good. But then I need to plan it... And I'm not in the right place to do that yet.

So not being able to think ahead... Yeh, I'm screwed either way >> just cuz I'm mad at the whole situation

 

[Friday]

A lot of these things just sort of happened / I wasn't really aware I was doing them until I stopped.

LOL For true. Had been doing something for years and had no idea I was "always" gone during XYZ dates??? Yep! Totally unaware of it. I just always sorta kinda seemed to get all excited about going on a trip, on the spur of the moment, and did it. During the same week. Year after year. Again, until I couldn't. Bit of a rude awakening when I found out ...right. Oh this sucks being here now.

Others were very deliberate. It's just a day, dammit. And I'm going to spend it doing something fun. Or self indulgent. Or elsewhere, if here it won't ever just be a day. Or whatever. Taking the day back. And finding out that taking a few days worked waaaaay better. And if I'm going to take a few days? Why not make a holiday of it, and make it a week? And then that worked even better. All the ramp up time, tranquilo, and all the coming down time, also chill.

Strength over hard days. That's one upside about really f*cking awful anniversaries; they pass. They're just a day. Good, miserable, zoned out, enraged, volatile, whatever. It's bad right now, but the day is going to be over soon. Get through it, and it's gone, for a whole nother year.

 

[Freedomfighter]

When I'm being smart I climb under a rock for Veterans Day / Memorial Day.

Same, I don't need any f*cki...

Yeah, I am going to have to be careful what I watch on TV for a little while, once those triggers hit there is no escape. Sometimes I just make everything really quiet, listen to music I love and read, read comical stories, read entertaining not stressful materials. That is always nice.