Panicking

[Privateer]

Um, I hate to bother you guys, but I really don't feel too good.

We had a call at work just now reporting a possible distress flare. After getting a detailed description the consensus is that it was just a large meteor. Fair enough. We get a lot of those and the description sounds like a large meteor at relatively low level.

Thing is, I've suddenly become convinced somebody is out there in trouble. I don't want to leave anyone out there to die. Not again.

It seems I'm a jinx. We've had so many nasty ones lately. I don't want it to happen again.

Everything's gone a bit blurry and I suddenly feel very tired. Is that normal? I don't know what to do. I'm not being realistic, I know, I just don't want to kill any more innocent people.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi, I am at a loss of what to say. Hopefully someone will come along who can help you out. I just wanted you to know you are not alone. It will be ok. Try to breathe and ground yourself. Go to the bathroom and gather your wits about you. Good luck.

 

[Privateer]

I'm really sorry. I shouldn't post these things, it's not fair on anyone else...I just...I really don't feel so great.

I'm sorry.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Do not be sorry, please just take good care of yourself. We all need help and support.

 

[piratelady]

Don't feel sorry for posting, it is good to ask for help. Unfortunately, I don't have any advice to offer you. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[Privateer]

Thanks, guys.

Either it's passed or I've gone over the edge. I feel calm but sad and my eyes keep involuntarily going out of focus. Is that normal? I don't know.

Gone kind of cold, too. Was so warm in here a minute ago.

 

[piratelady]

I have been sort of losing focus periodically also. I don't know if it's normal, but you're not alone.

 

[cherryblossom]

I can't say for sure but your symptoms do sounds stress/anxiety related. Feeling cold and tired will all happen after an adrenaline surge. Try to relax a little if you can. Gizmo has some good advice.

You can only act on the information you receive. No-one every wants bad stuff to happen (again), but sometimes things are beyond our control.

Don't ever apologise for posting and reaching out for help.

 

[Privateer]

I just feel so, so bad about those pilots. And the guys on the Bourbon Dolphin all those years ago. And the fisherman yesterday. And all the rest.

I know time is always a problem, given the distances involved, but it just seems that we're always too late.

At least, we are when I'm here. Maybe the guys are right, even if they are only joking. Maybe I'm bad luck?

 

[Shellbell]

I'm really glad you are reaching out on here for support. Anxiety is so hard to deal with.

cherryblossom said it all so well above.

 

[Privateer]

I appreciate you guys taking the time to reply. I am sorry for bothering you with my nonsense, though. I'm just being silly, I know.

Gods, I'm so, so tired.

 

[Shellbell]

You're not being silly. You are dealing with stressful and triggering issues in work, and that is very difficult.

We are happy to listen and help in any way.