Phew Glad That's Over...... :-)

[Deleted member 20280]

Well I got myself in a right "2 and 8" the last few days. Flashbacks and triggers every corner I seemed to turn. Each one much worse that the others before. Time to STOP! take stock of my life, do what I advise so many others to do and for once take a piece of my own advise. Well "yer tiz". I am back on track now and smiling at life again.

For, with PTSD there will never be a bump-less ride. There will always be hurdles to overcome it's just how we decide to overcome them. I spent too long hitting the proverbial "Brick-wall" and falling over, (usually blind drunk I may add).

So I have picked myself up, dusted myself off and here I go on the next part of my recovery journey.

I for one am feeling glad at this and offer everyone a mahoosive (((HUG))). Especially those of you who were there for me when I just needed to say HI!.

:) :) :) :)

Laurie

 

[markstantonmfti]

Good for you, its nice to hear your back on your feet. But I'm wondering, what is the next part of your recovery journey?? You left us hanging! What are your plans to change things and heal?

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Primarily to finish writing my Life's Journey surviving Childhood abuses and being raped as a young boy. Secondly to train as a psychologist to give back to the PTSD community what I have needed the last 10 months to be able to say "I hold my head up High, Yes I was abused and Yes I Survived!" Without my therapist and this forum I would be in a totally different place now.

:-)

 

[Maggiemay]

*Big hugs* I'm glad things have settled x

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Basically to think of what I suffered, and inevitable have survived in life. I am thankful that I am still alive (after three failed suicide attempts and a spell in ICU with a brain hemorrhage (alcohol induced) )

I do have a positive outlook on the rest of my life. I had so much and lost it all and some. I rebuilt my life after my first marriage broke down 20 years ago next month (I walked in on my then first wife having screaming intercourse with my then best mate. Her wearing the secret underwear I had bought her as a gift the day before (she finding it and then wearing it for her "lover"). I cracked and went to the kitchen where I kept my log splitting hatchet. Chased him down the road still pulling his trousers up!. Shame I thought then that I did not catch him.

I am glad in a way that my life panned out the way it has as it has made me a stronger man as a result. I have my regrets as most of us do but; I have learnt from my mistakes, I understand that no ones life is ever perfect and we all have demons and secrets from our pasts that many of us hide even from ourselves. I chose to move on in life and make a difference where I can and if that means writing my "Life's Journey" and taking a Psychology degree then guess what Laurie71! That is just what I will do. Bring on the study!!! :-)