Howdy! Dispatch here - I went out on disability and it's a shit show.
What is considered enough time “trying” to improve symptoms when the people who care for you know although symptoms may improve going back to policing will break me.
Things I learned along the way to disability/retirement (mine was a combo of dispatch and military crap)
Base your case on the place you are in today and get the paperwork going cause it can be a long process. If you improve that's wonderful, you can cancel the process. But if you don't improve you all ready have the ball rolling. If your agency's plan was like mine the insurance company behind the scenes will have you check in periodically to see if you still qualify for ptsd. I think I went in every few months and eventually it was determined to be permanent. One thing I didn't know is that they get paid no matter what, so they were actually on my side. I probably added more problems by not understanding that
If you have a union rep see if they can help referee with your agency so you aren't getting even more stressed out doing all the paperwork. My HR gal was actually really helpful - until I figured out she was trying to cover their asses! But hey, it made my life easier sooo it was mutual using each other
Depending on what caused the ptsd you might want to start just playing with the picture of what
not going back looks like. First responders get so much of our identity tied up in the job that when we lose the job we are just lost. Thinking of things for the future that aren't FR related might help get thru that grief. And yes - it's grief.
They don't have to be big things or even real things. Say you want to go ride a unicorn or something wild like that. But it helps your brain start thinking outside the FR box, even if it's just random nonsense ideas.
A mantra...(or more) that I found helpful
My life is worth more than my job
My life is more than my job
My life can be something other than my job
And the big one
I am disabled
because of my job so those asshats owe me the funds I need to retire and get into a better place in my soul.