Psychiatrist Cancelled Appointment For A Good Reason

[canucklady]

My psychiatrist cancelled appointment today at the last minute. She has problems with daycare for her kids, so I totally understand why she had to do it. It doesn't happen often.

Yet why am I sitting here crying over a cancelled appointment? Last week I actually tried to cancel this appt myself, so I should be relieved. When I called to cancel I was hugely triggered by something and doctor knew that so she called me back and calmed me down enough to see clearly and have me promise to come to appointment.

This whole T relashionship thing is very frustrating, I don't understand and am confused by my reaction. I have weekly appointments, so this is really no big deal, so I keep telling myself that.

So now am fighting the urge to just cancel next week as well....how stupid is that?:crazy:

 

[Deleted member 541]

Well, basically it isn't stupid if there is a trigger, or reason behind the urge to cancel....If you feel rejected, by her canceling then that is something that you may want to focus on, to overcome....There may be many reasons that you feel like you want to cancel, but only you know for sure what it is.....

I do understand the *why* but I urge you not to cancel...Instead try to figure out what you were feeling when she called and canceled, and then work from there....

 

[Perspective11]

My counselor has had to cancel appointments before, and after the time she canceled due to "having too much paperwork to do" I wanted to cancel every appointment after that. I do hope that you decide to not cancel your next appointment. I know that if I did, I would have missed out on the opportunity for all the help/support that she has provided since.

 

[canucklady]

The reason I cancelled in the first place was because T said she cares about me and cares about what happens and she will be with me in my journey of recovery.

So what do I do? Cancel the next appt!!!! how screwed up is that? Not quite sure how it happened, next thing I know last night am all of a sudden leaving VM canceling appt.
I thought ok, that is done. But no, T calls me, wasn't expecting that at all, wanted to check in with me. I was surprised and started crying. Maybe I was testing her, I don't know. She said maybe we were going too fast, so she wants to slow things down to create a safe place. Only problem is I don't really have a safe place. So she calmed me down and I decided to keep appt again.

And then the appt got cancelled anyway because of valid reasons. So am kind of confused by reaction to all this.

I freak out when T says she cares and now I freak out when she cancels appointments. How screwed up is that?