Other Psychotic break

[sonicwhite]

I think you guys are right. I think I’m sleeping into a psychotic break. I see orbs of light in my eyes.

Everyday I wake up with anxiety. Anxiety that our bodies are not capable of handling.

I’m fascinated with God. I’m reading up on psychosis and when I slipped into one in 2005 I was in jail. I isolated myself and told them I didn’t want help.

I got beat up very badly. I kept thinking I was going to be raped. I thought I gave my ex HIV.

All these delusions kept me from getting help while in jail until one day I called and begged to get out of there.

Then I was in the ward for awhile. About seven months into it I started to come out of it but I was never the same.

I see the clear signs that I’m slipping back into it. Thinking God is talking to me. My ramped anxiety that always makes me fear that I’m not going to make it to heaven.

Guys I need a benzo. I can’t function like this. I’m thankful I’m holding on but I know that this is going to eventually catch up to where I break from reality.

 

[Gs172003]

I think you guys are right. I think I’m sleeping into a psychotic break. I see orbs of light in my...

You sure you aren't just wanting back on drugs?

 

[sonicwhite]

I’m sure. I’m slipping into a psychotic break. I know I’d i don’t treat this now I’m going to lose it.


I’m on gabapentin
Risperdal
Remeron
Clonidine


And I know from the way I’m acting that I’m going farther into it. I just don’t want to lick myself up because I get more anxious in there.

 

[LuckiLee]

Call your therapist. Get to a hospital. Call a family member or friend. It's great you're reaching out here but you need some hands on care right now. Please be careful!

 

[EveHarrington]

Yes, call your doc or go to the ER. You might need your antipsychotic upped. Hugs.

 

[Sweetleaf]

I think you guys are right. I think I’m sleeping into a psychotic break. I see orbs of light in my eyes.

It's okay! It's really impressive that you've been able to admit that to yourself. It takes a lot of courage, honestly.

I think the best thing you could do for yourself, is to call your doc, go to the ER and tell them you're having a psychotic break and you need their help to make it stop. They can help you and make it go away :)

I see the clear signs that I’m slipping back into it. Thinking God is talking to me. My ramped anxiety that always makes me fear that I’m not going to make it to heaven.

Guys I need a benzo. I can’t function like this. I’m thankful I’m holding on but I know that this is going to eventually catch up to where I break from reality.

When I went to the ER for my psychotic break, they injected me with haldol (an anti-psychotic) and lorazepam (a benzo) - so I imagine they will give you stuff to make you stop feeling like you are, and stop feeling such extreme anxiety.

You need the help, and I'm glad you've realized that. They totally can help you.

 

[EveHarrington]

Haldol. Good stuff. Highly recommend in crisis situations.

 

[Nessa7]

The faster you get help the faster you'll begin to feel better. You cannot heal yourself and require the help of medical professionals. You can wait and let yourself get worse, but that might lead to spending more time in a hospital than you would if you went now. You're doing amazing already by recognizing that you are experiencing psychotic sumptoms. Now you need to take the next step.

 

[LuckiLee]

@sonicwhite, I just wanted to check in on you. I hope you're ok!

 

[Fadeaway]

Benzos will not help with psychosis. I feel manipulated. I was happy and relieved that you were listening to us and realizing that your thinking might be impaired. I was sure it meant that you would get the help you need.

Then you said you needed a benzo. I litteraly felt pain in my chest as I thought to myself, " he is using this as a tactic to get the dr.s to prescribe him more benzos. I feel like such a fool."

If I am right, then I am done trying to help you. I pray that I am wrong and you aren't going to use this to try and get more benzos. And don't you dare try and say you need it because of the anxiety. You are on a form full of people who have severe daily anxiety and don't use benzos or they only use them sparingly i.e. less than 7 a month.

 

[sonicwhite]

No I don’t want a benzo. Think make my conscience seared. I was and am amstill full of daily anxiety. It cripples me when I wake up.

I told the doc I never want you to prescribe me a benzo. I fear I will get addicted and have more seizures and die.

I am full of energy now. Not dazed like I was. It wasn’t out of drug seeking I assure you.

My anxiety was making me have back to back panic attacks.

I think if y’all can do it so CAN I!

 

[EveHarrington]

Did you call your doctor?