Ptsd Caused By Abuse By Parents ( Trauma )

[kenziii]

hello guys
please take a moment to read this
i was suffering from emotional abuse ( sometimes physical , slapping on face ) by parents for like 6 years maybe more
i was suffering in silence , i kept crying on my own and i was completely numb ! like they would treat me bad and i wouldn't feel sad at all , i used to move on , but it is like i made the trauma accumulate until it burst
now i am diagnosed with both ocd and ptsd , and they try to be good towards me , they want me to forgive them , sometimes they just say i am so sensitive and they are perfect parents , i can't forget what they did , everyday i talk to my mind that i shouldn't forgive them and why would i ? even if they apologize , it is too late anyway . they treated me the worst and they were acting cold , sometimes i feel like trapped and i need to escape , i take 4 antidepressants of 3 classes , i am better than before , but the drug just makes me forget the trauma for a while ! but afterwards i remember the trauma again , the events that happened and caused me pain , have you ever felt the same ? do you have any idea how to feel better ? anyway i love them , they are my parents after all , but i can't forgive can't let go

 

[Silent one]

I'm sorry you have been mistreated by your parents. They have done damage to you. Are you in therapy? I was also wondering how old you are. Every child deserves to be loved, nurtured, respected and cared for. It is not ok for your parents to treat you so poorly. Forgiving is difficult. Forgetting even harder. I'm glad you are here though! Hope we can help!

 

[kenziii]

I'm sorry you have been mistreated by your parents. They have done damage to you. Are you in therapy?...

thank you for your nice words :) actually it started when i was 18 but it still hurts , i am living with them so i can't escape the trauma so far

 

[void]

hello guys
please take a moment to read this
i was suffering from emotional abuse ( sometimes physical ,...

Welcome @kenziii !:hug:

I understand.
I have lived the feelings you are sharing.

Do not forgive them, they are liars, they damaged you in the worst way. Argggggghhh!
Their desire to be forgiven is SELFISH...fvck them.....it IS their fault that they abused you.

Perfect parents....as fvcking if......they are selfish liars!
You did nothing to merit being abused......nothing!

Kenziii......you still live with them.....when can you leave????

being with them is toxic and is making your symptoms worse

to feel better will be a bit easier if you are not living with them

I care.:hug:
I have live what you describe.:(
I believe you.:hug:

Can you tell us....are u working?...in school?
What are your options for getting away from them???

 

[Silent one]

I understand how it still hurts. It was traumatic! I hope it isn't still happening. Do you have any brothers or sisters?

 

[kenziii]

Welcome @kenziii !:hug:

I understand.
I have lived the feelings you are sharing.

Do not...

thank you @void
i am just graduated so i don't work actually , and they don't accept that i can live alone
i want to make diploma in uk , i traveled there before and i was better , but they refuse
i can't hate them but i just need space , time free from pressure free from bad thoughts

 

[kenziii]

I understand how it still hurts. It was traumatic! I hope it isn't still happening. Do you have any b...

@Silent one
well , i have a brother and a sister , the sister is older but she was mocking me because of my ocd , i never open up to her , i can't trust her
my brother is still young , he is kind and nice but he still can't understand the nature of my disease
thank you for your reply :)

 

[EveHarrington]

Why does it matter if your parents don't think you can live alone?

 

[void]

thank you @void
i am just graduated so i don't work actually , and they don't accept...

@kenziii

In Egypt, do you have to have your parents approval to live on your own and/or move abroad?
I know that some Islamic societies are quite strict about these issues. In the UK or USA, a young woman could just leave and never go back....cut her parents out of her life....disobey them. But I understand that in some cultures things are very different and can be quite strict.

Do you know anyone that can help you?

I can sure understand your need for space. I hope you can find a way.:hug:

 

[kenziii]

@kenziii

In Egypt, do you have to have your parents approval to live on your own and/o...

@void thank you so much for caring :) and yes it is not accepted by society here for a girl to live alone , i am working on making a diploma in uk God willing , exactly , i think i need time and space away from what reminds me of the trauma