Ptsd Dx But I Feel Nothing?

[melnyfla]

I was DX with ptsd amd anxiety . They tried making me take tons of meds and got entertainment out of me telling them what happened to me so I stopped seeing a psychiatrist. They are all the same. Anyway I don't see how it is PTSD even though I can only sleep every few days when I have dreams of being shot i feel no pain anymore just numbness even when I am awake. I am sure they were nightmares and night terrors in the past but dont remember how it feels. I feel no love or hate in general towards anyone. I can feel happiness but when I think I feel emotional or physical pain I am not sure if its actual pain or what pain really feels like anymore. Is this ptsd or dissociation or what? I just want to sleep but think its due to daily stress. Any insight would be great.

 

[Justmehere]

It may be that your numbness is on the dissociation spectrum. Insomnia and nightmares are also a symptom of PTSD. Wanting to sleep could be related to the insomnia or a sign of depression.

I may be off, but your writing comes across with a tinge of anger, hurt, frustration - all very ok and understandable feelings to have. Maybe you don't feel angry or hurt or sad, maybe you are dissociated from those feelings - but I think they are there.

 

[melnyfla]

I don't feel depressed. I laugh alot and dont let the little things in life get to me. I say I would like to sleep because I only sleep every few days, not excessively. Yeah, i get that I come off as brash all the time. So I can see if I sound angry. Hurt and frustrated because people are just interested in "the story" not really about what happened to me. The dreams are just that dreams. They aren't nightmares and there is no feeling attached to them