I don't really know why I'm here. I'm not currently interested in social media. Perhaps, I liked the idea. A place to analyze my behavior and thought patterns. I think some things could be helpful or a waste of time. So maybe I'll keep on or disappear from here and try to forge my life.
I do hate ptsd.
The aches and pains every day, waking up as I'm just dozing off could be causing that. I wake up on average every hour and am quick back to sleep but, rarely do I sleep more than a few hours at a time. That's enough for atleast one REM cycle I tell myself.
The long migraines threw me for a loop this time. I managed to celebrate Independence Day with my family but, I think having one beer was not worth avoiding medicine. Not that 2 naproxens (naproxen sodium tablets) will help all that much. They take the edge off sometimes for an hour or two. My mom hated the beer anyway. After that though my migraine has been worse. I missed out on an online social gathering but, I'm sure they don't mind. I just really wanted to go but, nausea and pain. Maybe next time, I hope.
The emotional struggle has been more difficult lately. I'm not sure why. It's probably a few factors.
Ptsd triggers, migraine, aches can add up to a sickly gal. My self worth likes drop during these flares but, I'm fighting that with affirmations and self care.
I am still managing eating regularly even though my migraine makes that difficult with nausea.
I used 3 affirmations lately.
One when I came back from seeing family.
The Other Side (of ptsd treatment)
PTSD is like
those moments of pure joy
make surviving
worth it.
Later when I just struggling,
What's the rush?
We're all gonna die anyway.
Live.
Love fiercely.
Most recently,
Reasons
Others depend on me
No guilt left behind
In due time
Absent of burdens
Cherish love
Precious moments
Being together
That last one both hurts and gives me the most. It evolved over weeks. I must leave this world clean and free of burden by living and loving from my heart. I am both inspired and in awe of the effect we have on each other. I won't squander that precious gift.
I do hate ptsd.
The aches and pains every day, waking up as I'm just dozing off could be causing that. I wake up on average every hour and am quick back to sleep but, rarely do I sleep more than a few hours at a time. That's enough for atleast one REM cycle I tell myself.
The long migraines threw me for a loop this time. I managed to celebrate Independence Day with my family but, I think having one beer was not worth avoiding medicine. Not that 2 naproxens (naproxen sodium tablets) will help all that much. They take the edge off sometimes for an hour or two. My mom hated the beer anyway. After that though my migraine has been worse. I missed out on an online social gathering but, I'm sure they don't mind. I just really wanted to go but, nausea and pain. Maybe next time, I hope.
The emotional struggle has been more difficult lately. I'm not sure why. It's probably a few factors.
Ptsd triggers, migraine, aches can add up to a sickly gal. My self worth likes drop during these flares but, I'm fighting that with affirmations and self care.
I am still managing eating regularly even though my migraine makes that difficult with nausea.
I used 3 affirmations lately.
One when I came back from seeing family.
The Other Side (of ptsd treatment)
PTSD is like
those moments of pure joy
make surviving
worth it.
Later when I just struggling,
What's the rush?
We're all gonna die anyway.
Live.
Love fiercely.
Most recently,
Reasons
Others depend on me
No guilt left behind
In due time
Absent of burdens
Cherish love
Precious moments
Being together
That last one both hurts and gives me the most. It evolved over weeks. I must leave this world clean and free of burden by living and loving from my heart. I am both inspired and in awe of the effect we have on each other. I won't squander that precious gift.