Rant, Really Tired

[Hutorop]

What surprises me is for all the talk of assisted dying the people speaking of it talk of doctors and nurses, which only shows their ignorance, they spend very little time with the palliative, most in those roles no longer provide the care but rather the medication. I think it is also out of touch to tell the unloved and unwanted someone will be there, no, they won't. They aren't.

 

[Uvilip]

Rules made and judgment from the loved and wanted.

 

[Uku]

It's shame that the people who are loved, wanted, needed, have everything to live for are the ones who die.

I think too with si is it's not always depression, but choice.

 

[Wirak]

I suppose the difficult part to wrap my head around I finally realized is this: I care for other people's children, not my own, other people's parents, not my own, avoid come ons from other people's spouses (not my own), tolerate the fallout from the one's trying to cheat's spouses. Put on a fake front while treated abhorently in private (I don't do that). Friends and family left cannot even phone for a birthday, or Christmas. Worse yet, horror of horrors fear too from the comments in private of a person who can't stand me which infer they know of my ptsd- not from me. And the coup de gras is, when I don't want to be here, I am the one called 'selfish'.

 

[Omaga]

I'm finding it very hard not to plan because I have opportunity for a week, come saturday no one around.

I know the worst is stress and fear of job (and other) loss, and bumped in to an old aquaintance where we coulfd do maybe an 'exchange', but I can't live with that either. And I feel so pitiful that I've sunk to the point that could be the only option, and I don't want that, and it's so not me.

 

[Remed]

But maybe I should make it me, suck it up. I have no help/ no options. But I can't live with that.

 

[Januwuj]

But I can't live with that.

What can't you live with?

 

[Casi]

where we coulfd do maybe an 'exchange', but I can't live with that either

An exchange of jobs?

 

[Emu]

OMG no, working and survival is the goal. I can't say the words / what out loud. :(

 

[Bofem]

No it wasn't yesterday it was tuesday he texted yesterday.

 

[Casi]

Posts #29, #30, #33 and #34 - are these posts all from one person? And if so, are you the original poster of this thread?

 

[Bofem]

I am ashamed to say it is. I'm so sorry I always forget this name business.

That being said I am so sorry, shouldn't have posted (at all), can't dele...[/QUOTE]