Really Weird Night, Ans Screwed Up?

[Eagle3]

Had a rough time at a party last nite, and the resulting trouble in my sleep is most likely related, but its never been that bad. So basically what happened was I was at a social gathering where there were lots of mostly unsupervised young children, thick crowds, and I was fasting (Yom Kippur). This was a Break-the-Fast party, so we were going to eat, I think the trouble was being triggered by the crowds and kids combined with low blood sugar. So by the time I got my food I was pretty ready to punch the next person who got in my space, ate at a table alone for a few minutes, and couldn't really taste my food. I managed to keep it together the rest of the nite, but had to go off alone pretty regularly until I could finally leave. Ok, so I should have brought more meds to such an event, i know, but I was driving a group home and couldn't run the risk of being overly-medicated. Had a good time, otherwise, lots of good conversation...

The major trouble hit last night while sleeping. I managed to actually get to sleep without too many pills in spite of the minor involuntary muscle contractions going on in the extremities, but all night long my left arm and leg would go completely, woodenly numb (no circulation), coupled with nightmares, gut-wrenching chest pains on the left side, and extreme muscle weakness in the arms and legs when I would wake up. This morning when I woke up for good I was fairly certain I tasted a hint of blood in the back of my throat/sinuses. My back hurts, I'm refusing to come out of my room this morning, and I haven't even turned my phone on yet, although I'm supposed to go out with a guy later this afternoon. I just don't know if I really want to go to another party today, even though I know there won't be kids there. Wishing I had a guy to hold me, reassure me, and make me feel safe, but since I don't have that I'm just clutching my pillows to death and crying when the mood hits me.

I guess I just needed to vent, but I hate this crap! How much of this is just PTSD and how much is something else? IS there anything else or am I just really this Fck'd up??

 

[Chava]

Hey Eagle, I just saw your other post on my thread, too. Did you get oxygen levels checked, just to be sure? Some weird stuff out there. But I've felt some difficulty breathing when having a panic attack, and also more mildly when muscles are tightening in chest and around my neck (had been using an inhaler but realized muscle relaxants helped). Then I'd also wonder if the numbness was like "freeze" numbness or sort of somatic dissociation, or if it really is circulatory. ANS craziness shouldn't affect circulation and make limbs go literally numb...though I suppose extreme stress is sort of like shock and arms and legs can go cold for a bit. But if it was numbness like really not good circulation, or even like a trapped nerve (or even if you're not sure), certainly go back to the doctors and take some written notes before if you are scared to share your symptoms. I'd be concerned about the blue lips plus circulation stuff. My blood pressure goes up with major panic and I have to get that settled, but having a limb go numb combined with chest pain should be checked out by a doctor.

I also have some involuntary spasming in some muscles and sleep troubles, and sometimes nightmares, so I assume that can all be trauma connected. But even if somehow connected to trauma, circulatory problems, or difficulties breathing combined with blue lips are nothing to mess with and should be brought to a doctor. Please write all of this down, and if you are too afraid to speak, give the notes to a doctor.

 

[Eagle3]

That's just it....I write it down, I tell the docs, the blue lips have cleared up for now, every test checks out normal (I'm the perfect specimen of health, except for a non-functioning thyroid and slightly elevated BP/HR). Its just really frustrating and I'm seriously questioning my own sanity at this point. What's real and what's not? If my doc's aren't concerned about these very troubling symptoms (and that's not even the cognitive/neurological one's either!), then should I be too?

 

[KwanYingirl]

The body holds the story and memories of our trauma. It is highly unlikely that a person with PTSD does not suffer from somatic symptoms. It's always due diligence to rule out diseases and I'm glad you are considered to be in good health. Many people aren't aware of how important our spine is to our functioning. Every nerve is connected to the brain via the spine. If you're out of alignment, all sorts of problems manifest. I get an adjustment every three weeks from my Chiropracter. If I have nightmares I slam my head into the wall and it compresses my vertebrae in my neck. I get numbness in my arms and a wicked headache. An adjustment is instant relief.

I had what I thought were body memories in my pelvis awhile ago, but it was my lower spine out of alignment and after three adjustments I am good to go.

I spend a lot of time in bed. I am seriously chemically sensitive and just being near a smoker or someone off gassing perfume or deodorant or laundry poison, I get so sick all I can do is sleep it off. So my spine ends up twisted.

My bodies been stronger since I started doing yoga. My balance is poor, but there are many postures I can do and I look forward to my sessions.

It's not foolhardy to seek help beyond western medicine. Just sayn'