Recognising The Small Positives

[Thinkingman85]

I want to let my friends on this forum know that I am improving. I started taking Prozac about three weeks ago and weekly therapy sessions about five weeks ago. I am noticing that the PTSD responses are becoming less frequent. This is definitely an effect from the Prozac. It feels like it is starting to relax and heal my brain. I know this is happening because usually I wake up one time every night. Now, I'm not waking up as much. I am becoming more open. My therapist told me this during my last session. Every week, we work on getting back to who I am and believing that I am good and capable. I'm starting to see a glimmer of hope. Standing on my own two feet again the way that I want to is possible as long as I stay on the path I'm on. Sooner or later, I'll have my confidence back. Right now, I'm concerned that when I get there, will I be able to handle life again? All the best

 

[Britt.f7]

That my son, who saw that there was a $20 bill in the atm, turned it in to a cashier. I know he really thought of keeping it. He could have, no one else would have seen him, not even me. But he didn't. It did bother me that the clerk didn't say anything to him or thank him for his honesty. She just took it and put it behind her counter. I hope that hasn't deterred him from doing it again. As his mom, I did thank him and told him what he did was commendable.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

That happened to me once only it was one hundred dollars. I was so tempted to keep it. I turned it in and the lady who left it called me and offered me a reward. I said no because I had been so tempted to keep it. I know how I would have felt if that had been my hundred dollars.

 

[Britt.f7]

the lady who left it called me and offered me a reward. I said no

That happened to me when I worked at a grocery store. I can't remember how much it was. When the customer called about it, I was able to tell them I had it and I would put their name on an envelope with it. They offered me a reward, but I couldn't take it because what is the point in giving it back only to receive anything but thanks in return. He did give me a coupon for his business. I didn't use it because I really did not have use for dance wear.

I told my husband the story of our son. He told Jake that at least he has integrity, no matter what the store clerk did with the money. Integrity was better then anything else.

I also wrote to the Pharmacy chain to tell them what happened and how I think it should have been handled. Hopefully I will hear back from them.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Good for you Britt. I am sure some good will come out of this for your son.

 

[Britt.f7]

I managed to go pick up packages at a store and did grocery shopping without anxiety. Pretty good for someone who hasn't been out with the exception of dr appointments for the last several months.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

To have the love of my husband. So precious to me. He is fading fast. It is scary. i try to take it a day at a time.

 

[Let It Be]

When I went for my walk today at the lake, I did go to the cemetary again. I wanted to make sure that the wreath that I placed at my husband's grave was still there, and it was.

This is huge for me. I feel like, finally, I'm coming full circle. I have many posts here where I was lambasting this guy, for what he did to me, when he was still alive.

I can see now why he came into my life, and for him to be the kind of person that I would be atttacted to, considering the type of family I was living in.

But now, I'm at that place where I can see where he very much had a purpose in my life. He did rescue me from my folks, and then we moved here, and he died.

There are many pluses, that I am now embracing for that time of my life. When I was at the grave today, I thought about how I have felt for so long about marrying him. Embarrased, ashamed, how could I?

By me, putting that wreath at his grave is a positive moment for me and where I am now!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank goodness for electricity. I cannot use my laptop without it.:)

 

[nimkekaa]

I really think that being thankful for the small things in life is very important.

Tonight I am very thankful for my dog whom I almost lost. I dropped a piece of pork off the stove and my little guy got it and sucked it down whole. He was choking and not breathing. I tried to do a doggie type abdominal thrusts and luckily it came out.

I really love my dog.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am glad you saved your dog. I am happy for you Nimkekaa. Hugs.

 

[Britt.f7]

Nimkekaa, I'm so glad you were able to save your dog! I love all my pets too and I couldn't imagine losing one. Good, quick, thinking on your part!

Small positive on my end is that my husband enjoys cooking so he has no problem putting together meals for our family. Boy I love that man!